I'm so sorry. Hope you are okay now

I used to fully believe in pharma (mother is a doctor), but even at that age, something told me to never use any birth control that I couldn't immediately discontinue by myself.

Turned out to be a good hunch because one time I went back to my doctor because I suddenly had extreme side effects, and they gaslit me saying "that's not possible". Turned out they had switched all their patients to a new brand "to save money" and I was not the only one who complained.