His Lovecraft bio is really good, even if you have no interest in his other stuff. His stuff is definitely depressing - imagine Ligotti but firmly within mundanity.
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Nothing compares to the horror of mundane Absurdism. Have you ever watched Synecdoche New York and I'm Thinking of Ending Things? Horrifying stuff. I've stopped listening to the recommendations of the guy who've recommended IToET.
Yeah seen synecdoche not seen itoet, I'm always put off by netflix productions. Can only think of 2 that I liked - annihilation (also worth a read) and the Irish man.
I think there is some sort of ligotti connection with the annihilation author actually. Can't think of it right now tho 🤔
There used to be a channel called Hallmark whose productions felt like the televisionic realisation of the phrase "close but no cigar". I feel the same when I see that red N atop an item on Netflix.
But it was okay, other than the soul crushing sadness of existence.
I wonder how AI models would explain the feeling of the statement you have made above-that feeling of total and utter fucking alienation from the former shsdow of yourself.
Depression?
Yes, you are totally right the medical model definition would be used-but if you are human experiencing this manifestation of absolute nihilism of thoughts feelings, actions and disassociation of soul self, desolation and abandonment of everything you relate to and that relates to you, doesn’t cut anywhere near does it? I do wonder if I had been brought up and socialised etc by the internet whether my experience of things would be different and from that, what is the emotional future going to look like for humans?
Is Annihilation dude Jeff VanderMeer? I really enjoyed his earlier stuff (like City Of Saints And Madmen) so I bought Annihilation and the others in that series when they came out but then I never read them because he called for Lovecraft to be cancelled and I vowed I'd never look at another VanderMeer book ever again.