Coming to terms with death is part of becoming a pilot.
You may have a catastrophic emergency with nowhere safe to land. Your goal in those situations must always be to minimize harm to others, even if it means assuring your own death.
Discussion
In a way doesn't that risk make you feel more alive, like with sky diving, scuba diving, etc? I do all three (flying, sky and scuba diving) and enjoy that feeling of "living a little." I also value the opportunity to see the world from a different perspective....not my usual perspective on the ground.
When you're in the air by yourself there is no other concern in the world. The level of focus is unlike anything I've ever experienced.
Where are you at now? Last I checked you were at the solo cross country phase.