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Every addiction is an avoidance of creation and service. It is a way to consume your own energy.

Every addictive pattern I’ve had, there is simply a moment where I decide I am done. It feels boring. It’s like I can see how overdone it is and is such a waste of my energy.

It’s a compelling waste because it’s convenient and doesn’t require much of me, which is why we gotta run it out for a while.

But then there’s a moment where you’re just sick of it and you’re sick of yourself doing that little game again.

Here’s your invitation to just decide you’re done.

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Kajoozie Maflingo 3mo ago

addiction is when you decide you're done over and over but you just can't stop yourself. its like you have multiple personalities, one is sick of the bad behavior and just wants to stop, and one that doesn't want to do anything but the addiction.

Katie ⌁ 3mo ago

I would call that not actually choosing to be done. There’s a difference between all parts of you on board, deciding and one part judging your behaviour while the other part carries on.

What I’m speaking to is the fully embodied choice where the adult in you says we’re done. The inner children or hungry parts may squirm and protest, but there’s a greater knowing that they don’t run the show anymore.

TheRupertDamnit 3mo ago

I've always said the key to breaking a bad habit or addiction is convincing yourself you don't want or need whatever the thing is. But you have to actively be aware of the addiction to do that. Addiction is a battle of wills, yours versus your "demon's".

Katie ⌁ 3mo ago

I don’t think you need to convince yourself, but rather hold a lot of awareness and compassion as you run the pattern out until you genuinely see that you don’t actually want the thing. Then you decide. You don’t need force to willpower your way out of it.

whit 3mo ago

Fair. I was a distance runner and my addiction was fitness prior to injury. Life taught me a lot once running was impossible.

Katie ⌁ 3mo ago

Oof, beautiful. Thank you for sharing

whit 3mo ago

You’re welcome. I had been a distance runner for WOW 🤩 19 years at that time. It affected my career so it was harsh. Truly am grateful 🥹 now. Shared because me hopes another will understand. Being “disabled” is a hard term to describe. Which is one reason I chose “Well Able” as a tattoo.

It’s also a reference to a verse from the #Bible. “But Caleb quieted the people before Moses and said, “Let us go up at once and occupy it, for we are well able to overcome it.””

‭‭Numbers‬ ‭13‬:‭30‬ ‭ESV‬‬

HUGS 🫂