Way back in college I took a class called Health Psychology. There is something called the “transtheoretical model of change”. You’re currently taking action, which is always a messy process. But you’re 100% right, you’re well beyond the contemplative steps. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. I can just promise you that if you keep showing up everyday and trying, sooner or later none of your bandwidth will be devoted to the cravings as they will dissipate. And the monkey will be off your back and you will feel a profound sense of freedom as you no longer require exogenous substances to feel “whole”. You got it dude.