people who have been here
a lot & often
on balance of scales
have had some
easy deaths, fast ones, slow ones,
& truly catastrophic ones
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i could not handle
you as a small child
torn apart by lions
in front of an audience with your family
i am truly telling you
i would make a time machine
before i was forced to helplessly watch that
lions starving too
just suffering across the board
with a cheering crowd
it is one thing
to by logic have math that tracks
it is another to watch it like a movie
like eyes stolen forced to watch
it is another to feel it embodied
emotionally
i cannot even begin to say
what it is to emotionally embody what is not your own life in the present
like was i supposed to go to grief counseling for parents who lost children as someone who has never even been a mom?
no. insanely disrespectful to do that.
but i was in agony for years.
& if i tried to get help?
with that story?
what would have happened to me.
medication certainly at bare minimum