You know what’s a weird feeling? Sad gratitude. It’s kind of like survivor’s guilt I guess.
We finally got a good rental for our Malibu refugees and word that all of our friends are ok.
I feel so grateful my friends and family are ok, but also heartbroken for everyone else and the loss of some of the most beautiful places in the city.
I can write phonebook sized books on survivor guilt. It sucks. Hang in there. The creepy feelings will come and go.
Even finding a rental. Everyone is fighting over the same hotels and rentals so even though it’s relief we got one, I’m imagining another family that needed it too
I always tell myself the survivor guilt is illogical, but still a very real feeling. It’s haunting. And can hold us back from living if we let it.
Doesn’t mean we won’t feel it though.
On the other end of this, I’d have people hesitate about coming into detox to get sober. Like, why should I get sober? It takes a bed from „someone who needs it more.” Which is impossible to quantify, totally unfair and often a copout.
As a professional, I would have to triage sometimes and decide who got the last bed. It’s like playing God and choosing who is most in danger…
These aren’t easy choices. And they make us human. It’s never easy. ☹️
Omg I remember that too. At least half the people I was in rehab with overdosed within the first year and I struggled harrrrrrrd to reconcile with why I am still here
That's normal honey. Stick with it, those affected appreciate it x
I was crying all morning seeing the line of traffic outside donation centers at Pasadena. Everyone is just coming together and being beautiful
Hey if you’re interested in helping me promote something with your powerful voice on here, I’m gonna be getting in contact with Habitat for Humanity Los Angeles with the intention of setting them up with a Lightning address and hopefully a Nostr identity too…
They have a young social media team who are looking for new ways to get donations, and I’m sure their disaster relief fund could use it right now.
Yes. Just tell me what you need and I will do it
Absolutely. I’ll be chatting with them during the week. Keep you posted.
Thank you friend. Do you have simplex by chance? I suck at DMs just fyi
You’re the third person to ask me about Simplex, I’ll set it up.
We usually use Signal- I’ll DM you that handle in the meantime just in case
Sent you a DM with link for simplex. I could post here too I’m sure? Not sure how the privacy works I’ve seen folks with public simplex links pretty sure
Saditude. It's the self-respecting complement to survivor's guilt. You're not feeling guilty, and you shouldn't be, just sad for everyone else and for what was lost.
Things can be rebuilt. People cant. While the things rebuilt wont be the same it serves as a reminder to live and love the life we have while we can.
It's heartbreaking! 🥺
Glad you safe and family. Sending you a huge hug ! 🫂🫂💜🫂🫂
Thank you so much my friend 🫂🙏🥰
