I think everyone needs a breakthrough moment - some find it easy and fall through the door backwards! some never find it even after hours of sitting meditation, this is karma on a stardust level to me.
Discussion
Yes, unweaving the tapestry of your life created through agreements and symbols made in the past can be quite the challenge. Very few are able to get to the level of pure truth or pure awareness. It’s not the active thoughts so much as the internal programming going on in the background..the person speaking to you when you aren’t paying attention. Subtle whispers…barely noticeable yet pulling all the strings