You can do it cozie! Just get through today
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I know exactly what you mean, especially business dinners ate hard. I responded to silly comments and questions like "oh, you are not drinking?" with a true, but sad response: I lost my mum far to early due to alcoholism, liver cancer.
And there was silence.
R.I.P. mum.
Mine went that route too, not liver cancer, alcoholism. She started well before I was born & then recovered when I was a teenager. We never recovered though, it was like not having a mom. There was a person there the whole time, but it was a shell. Hopefully you had a decent relationship with yours & miss her terribly still. Then although it was too short & you were robbed you still have memories that can sustain you.
I when through a tuff time, ups and downs. Made be grow adult very early. The sad thing is that you can't help. It has to come from the inside.