When all your friends vape and you’re left alone…. Ask me anything friends
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About 7 hours ago my dad called me and said he has an agressive cancer and might not be here in 6 months. I've cried about three tears over it. On a scale of 0-10 where 0 = you're okay and 10 being you're completely f*cked up, where do you reckon I sit?
Sounds like you might have overcome fear of death. I'm also increasingly stoic about it.
I've always been pretty stoic about my own, I spent too many of my teenage years thinking suicidal thoughts to be any other way. Plus regularly contemplating the glories of heaven helps perhaps....
I think when it comes to dad, we just never had that good of a relationship. Although, I'm the only one of his five kids who has spoken to him in years. I'm the only one he could have expected sympathy from but if that's what he wanted, it's probably not what he got. But he lived all his years making decisions with no regards to us and he might be about to regret that, or not... I don't care heaps either way. I just don't want to make terrible decisions that I will regret once he's gone. So yeah, if I can't convince him to get treatment closer to us, I will go visit him if he's around in July. But I'm aware that my motivations are so screwed that I honestly feel like a heartless b*tch.
Ain't nothing wrong with feeling vulnerable, ya know. There's no shame in it. Perfectly normal. By the way, I'm sorry to hear about your father. FYI, I would give him a call and settle whatever disputes that you may have with him. Not doing so will only lead to regret. At least from my experience.
Best of luck. 🫂
Thanks 🫂. I'm sorry to hear you have regrets in this area. I think that would be hard. That's basically what I mean, though. I don't want to regret anything but that seems like the wrong motivation to me. I can't pretend I have the right ones either. I'm the child with the least disputes and the only one he was good to when he felt like it. All of us will call him together tomorrow and if he stays calm the conversation will probably be healing for everyone. We will try to convince him that he has a support network here and to seek treatment in the city we all live in.
Since you and Mr.E were watching animation movies recently, was there any movie that you enjoyed but Mr.E didn't? (asking to figure out how to recommend movies to nieces and nephews 😅)
Good question! The one movie he’s hesitant to watch is fern gully which I love
I don't know what to ask.