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I'm constantly scared because no matter what choice I make, it could be the wrong move.

She already hates me enough to want me to live in constant fear wondering if she's going to copycat her boyfriend's suicide.

If I ask you to help me get in touch with her, and it works, she could kill herself because she was trying to stop thinking about this and she can't handle being contacted and reminded to think about it again.

If I take everyone's advice and try to stop obsessing over her, I would feel unnatural and broken, and she could kill herself because she's actually watching all this and waiting for me to do this so she has permission to die.

I just keep trying to contribute enough to the world to make her proud of her impact on me, hoping that's the one choice that doesn't give her any reason to kill herself, but I'm too slow and this could all be a waste of time because her cancer could also come back and I'm missing years.

But right now I have recent evidence she's alive. She doesn't have that for the boyfriend she lost, so while I can't avoid the human instinct to try to receive sympathy, I really need to make people care about her, not me. That's got to be the least dangerous choice.

Hodl Harry 10mo ago

Tbh man. I don't think she would ever kill herself. From the picture I saw of her, she looked quite good. There's always going to be a guy wanting to do anything for her and simp over her just because of her looks.

I also don't think she's watching all of this and if she really wanted to kill herself over things like this, she would already have done it. I know girls can make you crazy and obsessive, but you really shouldn't let it consume your life like this.

I don't know you or her, but it really gets to me to hear you struggle like this..

You'd be amazed how much love and enjoyment you could have in your life if you started to work out letting this go..

I'm not telling what you should do. I'm just trying to give you advice (which you Don't have to follow if you don't want)

I just Don't think she's so suicidal or even concerned about you or this situation like you describe it.. There's a lot more women that could appreciate your love/dedication and that would treat you a lot better, but you'll only find that out once you start dealing with all of this.

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🇵🇸 whoever loves Digit 10mo ago

I appreciate the reassurance. It helps a lot that it is starting to feel like she's safe.

Hodl Harry 10mo ago

She safe and doing good man.

That's just my thoughts about it.

But like I said: I don't know you or her..

It's just my experience in life and with women.

Don't waste so much time and energy on this. Someday you'll regret being like this and feeling like this. There's so much more to life man 🫂

🇵🇸 whoever loves Digit 10mo ago

I don't think I'll ever regret focusing on her for now 🤙