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In the past few days I think I've gone through a kind of psychological cycle. I was getting some validation from my spiritual musings, leading into religious stuff, but ended up reacting very negatively and harshly to someone for what I felt were domination tactics. You saw, no need for elaboration... Then, I think as a reaction, I started trying to remake how I interact with nostr. Basically tried to appreciate a more playful use of it. Doing so would fit with a longer term project I've had, which is to reduce my dependence on "left-brain" thinking, which means try to get more creative/intuitive. My problem there is that I still approach it in a logical/mechanistic way, but just fool myself into thinking its creatively expressive.

I've mentioned a few times on nostr my dislike of a particular religious group - the eastern orthodox. That's because, in light of this new love bombing information, they tried to love bomb me over YouTube. If they hadn't moved too quickly into the gaslighting phase, it might've worked. I guess my left brained approach to life saved me there... It certainly got a reaction from them.

I wonder... The EO cult may be a particularly bad offender, but they aren't the only ones... I think something like that is going on in all of the physical churches. So the emotional need that causes people to do that could be the reason Christianity has fallen so far from the original meaning. Its so bad, that most people who figure out the Bible end up quitting Christianity altogether. The problem is the people, not the beliefs. You tell anyone who thinks they're Christian what Jesus is actually saying, and they respond with intolerance. That may be because they are under a psychopath's control. What I described earlier as the forever narrowing of purity tests could actually be the gaslighting of "believers" to maintain control over them.

Anyways. Please do point out if I was doing any love bombing, or anything manipulative. There were a few things I said recently which I've been beating myself up over - showing too much neediness, basically.

ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴏꜰ ᴍʟᴇᴋᴜ 1y ago

you were clearly ready for someone to give you a few new tools to build your new model

that latent guilt about being one of them will fade with time

and yes, almost none of the churches are not controlled by psychopathic manipulators... it was already so bad 30 years ago that my mother abandoned gathering with them - she had a pretty strong instinct about it, and it was why she divorced my father, he was trying to use these techniques to maintain control of his leader role in the family instead of using his masculine power

idk if my father has woken up to it fully yet, but i know my mother she is a wise old witch, and i love her because of that, she is helping keep my sister's children from being turned into drones as well, i love my mother, she is the best, i always let her know when she appears again

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ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴏꜰ ᴍʟᴇᴋᴜ 1y ago

btw, i'm pretty sure there is a connection between witch and wise, obviously related to "way", probably something related to the "ist" suffix, like "wist" is "to have known" in german, iirc

ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴏꜰ ᴍʟᴇᴋᴜ 1y ago

also this whole constellation of words is related to the latin "vis" to see

ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴏꜰ ᴍʟᴇᴋᴜ 1y ago

and now i look at that, and i go "oh, and this is the relation to fish too"

Comte de Sats Germain 1y ago

Fish? That's unexpected

ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴏꜰ ᴍʟᴇᴋᴜ 1y ago

visser is the word for fisherman in dutch and german, think about it

this whole complex of ambiguity over V, B, F and U in old european languages has led to an extraordinary constellation of links that are extremely clear once you start to notice them

learning portuguese has cracked the egg for me

Comte de Sats Germain 1y ago

I guess that's why every German I meet can speak 5 languages

ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴏꜰ ᴍʟᴇᴋᴜ 1y ago

yeah, the interconnection between european languages takes a lot of time to absorb but once you start to get it CLICK so many things become really obvious, and not just being able to comprehend the foreign script (and it's easiest to see in script) but the semantics

Comte de Sats Germain 1y ago

That's good, and under appreciated in society. A good relationship with your mother, I mean.

This religion thing combined with fiat clown world progression could go to some very very bad places. Everyone is going insane... A lot of them think turning to religion is a proper response to the insanity they can recognize, but don't realize the religion is just validating some very bad assumptions. Like, "men should be the bread winner" is an assumption that plays on men's emotional insecurities, and synergizes with the churchy message that the man leads the family. Nevermind the reasons and justifications - this creates monsters in a society where men have less and less success.

ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴏꜰ ᴍʟᴇᴋᴜ 1y ago

i agree, to some extent, that it sets up ghosts for people to chase

but fundamentally, the man is supposed to be the one that gives imperative to the family, and anything that externalises that is contrary to it, like you say