For awhile I thought if I took enough acid I could figure something out, but I only ended up getting frustrated so I gave it up. Some questions are unanswerable and if you post about them online you'll find an army of people ready to poke holes in your theories. Plus I'm not even sure I could trust my own perception of what I was seeing or feeling. Bring a philosopher is not fun these days. I bet it was fun back in the day when you could blow people's minds with "I think, therefore I am."