cant stop smoking cigs
Discussion
molly is the wisest one
to her? => she said she cannot fathom i still believe in love
to her? she said dudes have been shitting on my face for years
i said, im not worried about it
however, the fact on the ground matter is i am entirely unacclimated
like how in a famine you are in serious dangerous once there is food of dying
blah blah blah cigs close down your heart chakra yea no shit
i literally am calibrated to survive all i did since 2013
anan is seriously like: i am literally not even that nice or caring this is the bare minimum of human decency
& i have to watch it really hard not to get blown out
molly said the same
i am deeply unused to affection
i will literally overdose
i have to be gradual about it
ive been making so much progress in a good way
it is so good to be dancing & singing so much again & to feel loved
i just have to babystep it so i can digest it too
i dont wanna dwell on it
but its been really really really bad
i think i spent an awful
long time clearing whatever karma i could that wasnt even mine
im so glad i did
on the house
like being a sin eater & garbage eater & recycler
not unique there a lot of people
do this work