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I had two dreams last night, which is unusual because I usually don't dream at all. Whole years have gone by without any dreams, but last night there were two.

The first was amazingly stupid. It was literally the most boring thing my subconsciousness could have generated. It was a zoomed in view of a fingernail being clipped. But every clip was poorly done, and resulted in a jagged edge. It was a nightmare.

The second dream was amazing. I saw my sigil, which I originally received when I was a little kid. I used to doodle it all over the margins in my notebooks. This time, I saw it in greater detail than I've ever seen it before.

I normally see the design as representative of a dancing goddess, surrounded by fire that's not fire. There are no straight lines, and no angles greater than 90 degrees. I've only recently begun to understand it - the fire represents grace and my own life. The goddess represents both God and the universe, but expressed as a quality of wisdom and flow. She's frozen in a posture of dance, but you can't see her at all unless you feel the dance of the lines first.

Now the part that I've never seen before, which was new in this dream : the goddess was revealed to also be a heart, and inside the heart is a curled salamander. It's tail circled to its mouth. Which "it's" is correct in that sentence? F%$ing English... Anyways. What does the salamder represent? I'm not sure. Also the center used to be a void, but now it contained both the salamander and the grace that I used to only draw on the outside.

Very peculiar... Today I'll be researching symbolism again.

#dreams #symbolism

My new word for the day is Sigil!

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I wasn't sure it was the correct word

I was just reading about sigils to see if I used the word correctly. This is a deep rabbit hole. I think it's the right word. Apparently magicians have been drawing and using sigils since Solomon, at least. They either represent demons or the self. I think mine represents me.

Demons are another rabbit hole - they usually represent psychological forces that cause us to do things - they can be a helper, if the need is addressed, but are mostly destructive until addressed because they make you behave in ways that are over-compensatory.