I quit smoking 4 weeks ago.
Life makes no sense the last 4 weeks.
Discussion
Iām dreaming of smoking.
Smoking, I miss youš
I am on +5kg come on
In four weeks? Nice.
Girl, Iāll eat my dog soon enough
Maybe I'm fat because I don't smokeš
Iāve been smoking for 20 years. Now Iām questioning if I was skinny for real or that was š¬š¬š¬š¬
It was the smoking. Stopped in 2012 and ballooned from 95kg up to 135kg within a year. Took me way too long to get back to a healthy weight for my size.
Your eating habits will change, you'll feel hungrier often, you'll develop replacement cravings for the dopamine hits.
Try to be aware of your behaviors, try to achieve a few seconds of actually living in the moment once in a while and enjoy getting to know a more unadulterated (because of different brain activity from loss of constant nicotine stimulus) you.
Find ways to work out without inducing complicated new habits/rituals. Waiting for coffee? Lean your body against something, do minor body weight exercises throughout the day like that. Doesn't feel like it matters but it does so tremendously. You'll quickly find more ways to do exercises like that, it'll feel like a game instead of a chore and it'll become a habit without adding complexity and guilt.
All the best to you and your journey. ā
yay! good job! š
I meanā¦ is it? š iām a better person when I smoke I swear
How long has it been for you?
I can only speak for myself. That feeling goes away, but the urge for a cigarette comes back every now and then and never really goes away ššš
My aunty told me that she quit 20ish years ago and still wants to light one. Did not helpš« š
Yeah, the difference is that instead of waking up at 2 a.m. to go buy cigarettes, you just push it out of your mind
Come on wouldnāt you just buy in advance and always have a stash?šš«
Iāve tried cutting back on smoking a bunch of ways. Once is cool, but after that it gets risky and you just start smoking again. So itās best not to have any at home lol
Yeah Iāve tried lower the number of cigs per day so many times and figured I just had to quit fully at this point
This post reads almost like a haiku for me.
So if youāll let me offer my own experience of quitting for years, starting again intentionally, quitting again for years, starting again intentionally, quitting again for years, starting again intentionally, and now just a few days ago Iāve quit againā¦
Youāll be ok. You quit because it was time for you, and you knew that. And youāre over the hump, which is heroic!
Can I āmind-readā you for a moment that when you say āLife makes no senseā without smokingā¦that tells me youāre very likely a Sensitive person? Sensitive people, in my experience, seek to have a (hopefully manageable) addiction. Itās almost a Holy Grail. And cigs are by far the most manageable.
Because Sensitive people (artists, intuitives, whatever we call ourselves) feel instinctively and incessantly the Hole that we all have inside us. That Hole is universal, itās woven into our time here as Humans, and it can never be filled for real. So by adopting an addiction, we can fill it in moments where it calls to us. Itās like a Munchausen addiction by proxy - we feed our inner need for calm by creating an outer need that we can attend to easily.
If this doesnāt resonate with you, Iām off-base. Move on, no worries.
Some larger majority of people arenāt actually sensitive to the subconscious and unconscious sides of themselves, so they donāt actively āfeelā their Hole. They have other talents. But all of us have a Hole of need, of want, an existential traveller inside us that we canāt identify or tend to. This condition affects us all.
But letās admit, itās not really overwhelming. Itās mostly just a discomfort and a want, and even then only during a few moments of our day.
If any of this still resonates with you, I can offer this: that if you also recognize that the need to smoke is actually a need to fill a deeper Hole in you that you donāt understand, donāt know what it needs, donāt know how to fill itā¦but there it is and it wants you to DO somethingā¦well for me, that became a way to completely rise above the addiction. For me, once Iād stared into that hole and knew it would never go away, I also knew it was a tiny but persistent burden Iād just have to be Sensitive to, make peace with, but firmly learn to say No to.
This became a long post. Iāve rambled. I appreciate that you posted two sentences and Iāve vomited however many back at you. Itās been far more helpful to me, as Iām sure youāre already aware.
Anyway, smoking is not and was never a ābadā thing. Especially for those of us drawn to it. But it was/is always and only given to us as a psycho-spiritual crutch, or āaspirinā. To help us through to the next chapter in our development.
I have so much respect that youāve gone 4 weeks!