i hope some of what i shared helps you in your journey, fren. i also know what it's like to have an excess of sexual energy that is difficult to redirect. it feels unwelcome and lonely to be unable to share it with the one you love, especially when you're figuring out how to sit with it.

but i would also say that we are more alike that you may think. i fell in love with my Wife when we we both young—we had no idea of FLR or kink or anything. i think i knew that i was submissive, but i had no idea what it meant or how to express it. i held shame for it for a long time. both of us had a lot of self-discovery and growing pains to work through.

She is drawn more to the relationship aspect of FLR than the kink—the affection and devotion, the service and support, the intimacy and connection—my yearning and aching and desire; She enjoys inspiring and shaping me to be the best version of myself for Her—She enjoys me being Her reliable good boy.

and you're right when you say the path of unconditional devotion is challenging, fren. it can be frustrating—full of ups and downs—especially when starting out. but i have to say, the journey has been so rewarding so far, not in terms of getting what i want, but in terms of finding what i didn't know i needed. <3