i have to be talked down to and either "homeless"/put into a facility/motel (which they know is triggering), since i'm a horrible "child" who won't do anything, since i embarrassed my parents telling the family i've been abused (which they're still taking sides) by my parents who haven't had any real problems besides their mom dying early from the stress they caused her. its retaliation for me saying my mom and aunt couldn't pay her great uncles/cousins/grandmother back for trying to live above their means and clout chase like 20+ years ago so they lost their land. somehow it's now my fault for wanting to sit and study and grow food and figure out how to do it in space while they deny me any education to prove how hard it is for POC as some goddamn social/societal shit show.

they're mad i post it on "social medial", it's called the internet, they can literally talk to the pope and ask him to fix me.

honestly who sits there and actively tries to get their offspring incarcerated, hospitalized, put into a facilities put in jail, put somewhere out of sight so no one can confirm the truth.

every decision about my life is made behind my back and I don't get to have control over my own person most of the time. i'm suppose to just sit and wait until i'm of some use for something.

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keep on keeping on.

i'm rooting for you.

if that means anything.

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it really means a lot actually

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Nobody is denying you education. The race card is invalid here. Don't succumb to that.

Make a plan, with steps, and work towards achieving the goals you set forth. Identify resources in your area that can get you where you need to be to accomplish such goals on a daily or weekly basis.

Whether the road is a few steps or a gazillion steps it takes forward movement and we are all responsible for taking action to progress.

Please don't get me started

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Dealing with everybody else in my family having an education except for me because they have to prove a point to society on how THEY were wronged in a state they're not even from.

I've got my own point to prove. The laws here recently changed and my folks have to obey them. Whatever comes afterwards is not my problem. Don't know why I need to be an "obedient child" to not end up in a psych ward.

I'm tired of dealing with abuse from people who don't even know what they're doing. And use the church to cover their asses.

A degree in humanities food/ medical engineering and applied linguistics isn't impossible, fucking up my dreams to work at a space agency isn't.

No one knows what I'm talking about half the time because half the shit I'm talking about isn't even in development yet.

You're able to choose your color at this point, it's just what kind of person you want to be.