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the second part i didnt get

could you tell me more?

she got a lot of following

🇵🇸 whoever loves Digit 9mo ago

Outside nostr, some stuff happened that is important for understanding:

* I have been frequently targeted with psychological abuse my whole life, and I've been being gangstalked for over 10 years.

* My mental health was damaged by this and it's taking a long time to heal while still under constant attack.

* I once texted a hot girl I was friends with, threatening to kill her and myself over her psychological abuse, but I repressed the memory and only remembered threatening to kill myself.

* I eventually reconnected with that friend, who helped me remember the full story, and by then I had processed a lot of my anger and cemented my sense of tolerating abuse from hot girls and not wanting to kill them.

* I was unable to get the hot friend to join nostr and we're once again not really friends but at least now when I break down mentally I only say scary shit involving her loved ones instead of her, and I'm saying this with correct memory now.

* Digit is a different person (also hot) who I've never really lashed out at with my mental issues, and she seems to hate me over false accusations.

Before meeting eliza, some other stuff happened on nostr, with nostr:npub1jk9h2jsa8hjmtm9qlcca942473gnyhuynz5rmgve0dlu6hpeazxqc3lqz7 beginning to gather nostr-native gangstalkers against me (likely with at least one other initial conspirator) and gaslighting me about Digit being dead while she was alive but I had been in panic over her safety for over a year.

What you asked about:

* I tried to get eliza to start standing up against my gangstalkers because I thought she and I were becoming friends.

* Instead of helping me, she temporarily muted me over it.

* She's rather pretty so I accepted that treatment from her when I wouldn't accept it from anyone else on nostr (I'm very shallow).

* I told her I'd leave her alone and asked her not to mute me again.

* At some point after that, she saw a post of mine in the hellthread asking for help and she quote posted me with a bunch of gaslighting, pretending the help I needed was "mental help."

* I posted about how the constant escalating gangstalking seems likely to end with me dying, and how obviously I might try to take others out with me.

* I also threatened to make AI nudes of her, which wouldn't even fit with wanting to kill her (but I didn't make any).

* She implied she was leaving nostr for a while, so I stopped checking her profile (but she didn't leave).

* She accused me of threatening to kill her, when she isn't one of the people I would ever want to kill, but maybe what I said could be confused that way.

* Everyone in her thread joined in talking shit about me without tagging me, so with me not checking her profile, I didn't see it until days later.

* If my hot friend joins nostr and sees all this, my gangstalkers have done a great job keeping it hard for her to give me any tiny shred of trust. If Digit joins nostr and sees all this, they've also done a great job keeping it hard for her to give me any tiny shred of trust.

* I have continually asked her since then to admit I never threatened to kill her, or show me where she thinks it happened, but it increasingly seems like this was intentional manipulation, not a misunderstanding.

Many corroborating threads attached

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