Thank you for your thoughtful response!
I have changed a lot in the past six months or so and have suddenly become a Nostr and Bitcoin maximalist. I see a lot of problems within society that I feel we are able to address, even if sometimes it seems like people aren't willing.
But honestly I am still very optimistic because I know I'm doing the work to improve myself and any community I live in and I know I'm not all that special so surely there are plenty of others doing the same. I don't want to leave society.
But hey, maybe I just have more learning to do and that'll seem reasonable to do at a different stage in my life!