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10x-ing your personal agency would mean radically increasing your ability to shape your own life, take control of your decisions, and act with unstoppable momentum. Here’s what that could look like:

1. Extreme Ownership – You stop blaming external factors entirely. Every problem in your life, even those caused by others, becomes something you take responsibility for solving.

• Example: Instead of complaining about a bad job or relationship, you immediately take action—quitting, negotiating, setting boundaries, or creating something better.

2. Relentless Decision-Making – You make decisions faster and with more confidence. No more waiting for perfect clarity; you trust yourself and course-correct along the way.

• Example: If you’re unsure about a business idea, you don’t spend months overthinking. You launch, test, iterate, and refine based on real feedback.

3. Maximized Self-Efficacy – You fully believe in your power to accomplish anything. Obstacles don’t make you hesitate; they fuel you.

• Example: Instead of doubting whether you can learn a new skill, you immerse yourself in it until mastery is inevitable.

4. Unshakable Conviction – You stop seeking external validation. Your internal compass dictates your actions, not social pressure or fear of judgment.

• Example: If you believe Bitcoin is the future, you build your life around that belief, regardless of critics.

5. Preemptive Action – You don’t wait for life to happen to you. You anticipate problems, solve them before they arise, and create opportunities before they’re needed.

• Example: Instead of waiting for a financial crisis to remind you to be prepared, you structure your wealth and assets proactively.

6. Radical Self-Discipline – You become immune to distractions and emotional impulses. Your daily actions align with your long-term goals with near-perfect consistency.

• Example: No more “I’ll start tomorrow.” You execute daily, whether it’s fitness, learning, or building.

7. Mastery Over Emotions – You control your emotions instead of them controlling you. Anxiety, doubt, and fear don’t dictate your actions; you override them with logic and action.

• Example: If you feel hesitant to make a big move, you acknowledge the fear but don’t let it stop you.

8. Network Leverage – You stop trying to do everything alone. You build high-value relationships and use collective power to multiply your impact.

• Example: Instead of struggling solo, you surround yourself with top performers and create value together.

9. Obsessive Execution – You move at 10x speed. What takes others a year, you accomplish in a month by eliminating waste and focusing on the highest-value actions.

• Example: Instead of daydreaming about a screenplay, you finish a first draft in a few weeks and refine it through rapid iterations.

10. Freedom From the Default Path – You stop living according to pre-set societal scripts. You design your own reality with no limits.

• Example: Instead of following a conventional career path, you engineer a life that aligns perfectly with your deepest convictions.

If you had 10x your current agency, you would feel like a force of nature—relentless, unshakable, and utterly in control of your destiny.

What’s holding you back from that level now?

The only thing holding me back from that level right now is my own self-doubt and fear of negative potential outcomes caused by my actions. One of the most challenging aspects to my mind is that I do my best to calculate all possible outcomes to any situation I am presented with. Over time I believe I have falsely become addicted to something else far worse than any drug. The feeling of constant fear and the stress of living life.

The actual chemical reactions caused by my own negative thoughts causes me to take two steps forward and three steps back. Even though they are undesirable feelings and emotions that truly haunt me. I have become addicted to the habit of always thinking and speaking negatively in order to feel them in the majority of my waking moments

This must be stopped now.

If you have any resources for mastering your own thoughts and emotions. So that I can stop accessing the physical chemical reactions as a side effect of negative thinking please let me know.

I have been studying stoicism, but I need more information to help me battle decades of betrayl, PTSD, justifiable paranoia, and a variety of excuses. Which my mind constantly beats me over the head with daily. That stops me from becoming who I know in my soul I was truly always meant to be.

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You may try reading Michael Singer or Peter Ralston books.

The key idea is to just observe your thoughts, don't label them, don't keep focusing on a thought, just acknowledge it and let it go.

Easier said than done, I know.

But I do think it helps me. When a thought arises, let it go and come back to the breath or focus on what you hear or see, or go back to what you are doing.

To continue on this thought, do a vipassana retreat. The cost nothing but your time. 9 days of complete silence and meditation acts as a sort of deep surgery on your brain. I highly recommend this to anyone who doesn’t have extreme psychological disorder; eg schizophrenia.