I think that you seriously need help, I mean this with fullest sincerety and respect. But if you truly believe this stuff and can't remember if find proof there may be an issue.
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I have needed help for a long time, but people mostly refuse to help me.
For example, your words are probably meant to gaslight me by implying I need a paid psychologist, when you could actually be helping me with some of the related things I've been trying to get help with, like making nostr:npub12vkcxr0luzwp8e673v29eqjhrr7p9vqq8asav85swaepclllj09sylpugg fix their "advanced" search.
Anyway no, it's not that I believe something I remember, it's that I remember something I believe isn't true - I believe the memory is incorrect, as human memories can be.