Hi Rae.
As nostr:npub1hspwpfkq7qddnj6h52c03muzgx79l7teeez99n57ys77g4m4vujs3hly9q said, we have a study group that you would likely enjoy.
It's free and open to come or go as you like.
As an example of something we cover that you would find harmonious with your expressed desires, the Tree of Life offers insights into "masculine and feminine energetics and bringing those principles into balance".
The Tree of Life has 3 columns.
The middle one has a lot of correspondence with the Hindu chakras.
The left and right columns contain "Divine attributes/traits/characteristics" that are either masculine or feminine.
The "Divine Masculine" traits are Wisdom, Power/Severity, and Victory. The reason for this is because Wisdom penetrates foolishness, Power penetrates resistance, and Victory penetrates thresholds.
The "Divine Feminine" traits are Understanding, Mercy, and Glory. The reason for this is because Understanding is predicated by receptivity, Mercy is acceptance of what has already transpired, and Glory is taken in.
Each Divine Masculine trait is meant to be paired and balanced with a Divine Feminine trait, i.e. Victory and Glory is a pair, Power and Mercy is a pair, and Wisdom and Understanding is a pair.
This is such a deep topic though. Basically since January of 2023, I've been researching the Divine Feminine aka Kundalini. At this point, I've tracked this across many traditions and I have roughly 60 pages of research presentation content dedicated to "decoding religion". As a result, I'm pretty sure I've discovered the scientifically and spiritually legitimate origin of the baptism ritual. Spoiler: it's Egyptian.
If that interests you, and you want to talk more, we have a Signal group for the Flight Club study group. We've been doing 2 study group sessions each week. One is on Sundays and is more academic and studious. The other is on Wednesday evenings and is more practical and experiential.