Thank you!

People who rage about chat GPT going rogue on them are people who cannot stand the sight of their own reflection in the mirror.

#pleb #nostr #pleblife

I was hanging out with my ten year old nephew this past week and something went down between us that will stay with me.

He got a make your own comic book set for Christmas and he wanted me to help him. He seemed kinda concerned at the beginning - concerned about getting the front page right. He criticised something he drew. Wanted me to draw stuff for him. Had one (brilliant) idea and then threw that in the bin because he didn’t believe he could do it.

I suggested that he not worry too much about having the whole thing worked out and just play around with some ideas, draw up a few characters and practice, because there was loads of space in the book he had.

I said, in passing: It doesn’t have to be perfect.

And what happened after was fucking wild honestly. Like a stuck tap just got turned on.

He’d drawn a new character within minutes. And I knew it was that sentence because he repeated it back to me several times while excitedly bouncing his ideas off of me:

It doesn’t have to be perfect.

I know from having been a kid once, how deeply words are internalised. Words that the speaker might have forgotten about within seconds of saying them.

But that really cemented it for me. The way he took that in was so instant and powerful.

And it’ll stay with me because I was dominantly raised by a pair of perfectionists - who I love deeply and have gorgeous relationships with now - but as a kid I did not feel like I had permission to make mistakes or get it wrong and it left a pretty enormous gash on my nervous system that I’m still working out to this day.

If there is one thing I wanna teach my kid(s) when I have them, it’s that there is an endless amount of grace available to them for their mistakes.

Because that’s how you learn from them and not repeat the same mistake over and over and over again for years and years on end; you give yourself grace. And that grace is the light that illuminates the lesson.

#nostr #primal #perfectionism #pleb #plebchain #grownostr #pleblife

A story / riff / poem about G R A C E

It is a livestream rec - takes a minute or two before we get going

Happy Christmas 🌹

#grace #godsgrace #spirituality #merrychristmas #unconditionallove

https://blossom.primal.net/aec126be07a5488847171616c0b572c7608c3b0d5ac38b024b44da9665fd4e58.mp4

Ive been shown a few clips of both. What a joke haha. The "boxer" Tate went up against couldn't even throw a tidy punch

Hahaha. Simplest way I can describe it is that the energetics of something is the difference between intellectually understanding something vs BEING it.

I did think that it might be worth watching the film again actually to see if there's anything in it worth noting

I did a session this week where we worked directly at the fracture point.

The actual location of it, instead of all the downstream patterns and stories that it is so easy to get caught in.

And what became so clear that I realise I probably need to say in as many different ways as possible, is how common it is to hit this spot in your growth process, and literally not have an actual fucking clue what is going on with you. Like it is maddeningly convoluted.

A fragment comes up for integration. And with that come the old sensations / emotions / thought-forms.

But when you’re asked what you’re actually feeling, it’s like you draw a blank. Just feel bad. Like it’s too much. Like: I don’t know, but I need it to stop.

The system “goes down” but there’s no language for it because what is asking for recognition has never been seen. So the fragment stays unnamed.

Untended and unintegrated.

And then you get the fear because once one episode in the ringer is over, another one invariably comes and you still don’t have a clue “what it is” that keeps coming up. And even though you can trace some progression and “lightening” of the load, it feels like the same thing. Every. Time.

The fear-based narratives grip on all the sides.

Fear of how you’re gonna sleep through night and then go function the next day. Fear of running your business into the ground. Fear that you’ll be looping around the same thing forever.

And that fear becomes a second, heavier layer - one that creates FAR more suffering than the original fragment ever did.

I know this terrain so well. When a fragment keeps pulling you into the murk because it WANTS to be seen and brought home, and you don’t recognise WHO it is, so the mind scrambles wildly.

The problem solver kicks in:

Another biiiiig old layer of distraction. Fixing. Analysing. Searching for a cause.

Often, the sensations get projected onto external situations.

(aaaaaaanother layer!) Onto work and business. Onto money, body image, relationships. Onto the future.

There can be SO much mental obsession and distraction layered over the top of the thing.

Yet, the truth is so much quieter and more precise. And it is NEVER a failure or a regression. Ever.

It’s an integration point that hasn’t been met yet, and when it is finally recognised - not solved or bypassed or analysed - it shifts. The bottle necked energy lifts. Fear disperses.

You feel *consistently* better and you lead your business and life from that place, which obviously makes ALL of the difference - to your enjoyment and your results.

There is no relief in trying to contort your outside circumstances. It is a dead end road and it is one that many people circle around forever.

The release comes from finally knowing the truth of what you’re actually in and having a clear and supportive context for how to navigate it.

This is literally the difference between living in loops, and living a “whole pie” life, where creativity, spirituality, material success, relationships, and emotional life are fulfilled and continually evolving from a place of fulfilment.

This is the work I do.

It's not even about wanting. I am cringe. I say cringe stuff. The way this has been distorted to mean something about my husband just... reeks of shit and jealousy tbh

It was so cool!!

This is such a strange response. It's not given because it's needed.

Last night, while dreaming, I met with a huge, white dragon that reminded me a lot of the one from Never Ending Story, and it felt like meeting a particularly ancient, old friend.

I cannot describe the recognition that I felt, and the immense love and protection emanating out of him. I called him fluffy. I somehow knew that wasn't his actual name, just the one I had for him. Felt like a really, really small and young part of me knew him and was present in that dream. I remember resting on his belly and feeling his warmth.

And that warmth has been blazing in my womb and heart all day. 🥹❤️‍🔥

Goodnight texts to my husband where I start with one thing and then it leads to another and then I'm like yeah okay this is gonna get weird but I'm already in too deep 😆

Not necessarily. My answering of one person's question might serve 10 other people if they can see it. Appreciate some conundrums might require privacy though, so I'm happy for you to DM if you'd rather not comment publically.

I'll assume this is a scam? #asknostr

Wow!!

He came to me with a thread I know intimately.

A raw fear response erupting out of nowhere.

Surges of panic while driving with his daughter.

Activation hitting him mid-session with a client.

Sudden night jolts pulling him out of sleep.

It is so easy in this spot, to collapse into wrongness. Without context or clarity, these experiences can be incredibly destabilising.

This is the kind of material that only surfaces when someone is expanding far beyond their old capacity.

When your work is powerful, your growth is rapid, and your higher intelligence system is evolving faster than your mind can keep up, you will naturally begin touching subterranean layers that most never reach.

Pre-verbal trauma. Dimensional contracts. Ancestral binds.

Traversing these layers, not from a place of problem solving, but with courage, curiosity and presence, is where unprecedented expansion and wild freedom lives.

The higher you go, the more deeply you meet yourself.

And his gift from our session?

A rewired relationship to what was happening inside him. The fear lost its grip the moment it was understood.

What once felt terrifying became a portal.

This is how the medicine goes down.

If you’re moving at a level where ancient and subtle layers are surfacing, if its clear you’re outgrowing an old identity, if the loops feel closer to the bone than ever before, then it’s time.

Fear Medicine Sessions are officially open!

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Yeah I mean my ketamin experience is very ltd and it still made instant sense 🤣

Energetic imbalance is another good way of describing it. And yeah when you talk about it not being tied to size - this feels so important. The bound up energy that wants to be freed is the same regardless of the nature of the trauma. What differs in scale and complexity is the protective structures + alarm systems built around it. Which will often correlate with the severity of the trauma / whether it was acute or prolonged / whether it was preverbal etc. there are a lot of variables so I don't wanna over simplify. But I think a lot of people can be in this mindset of "what is down there is really bad because what happened was really bad" or something like that, when actually, when you get down past all the alarm systems, the energy is just the energy.

Someone I follow described the retrograde as a "neptunian k hole" hahaha