Did 5 months of acceptance and commitment therapy and learned to let go.
Best way way I can describe it, i ruminated on storylines of a future that would never come. I was waiting for never. Once I was able to reprocess and accept the thoughts, I found my peace and have been there ever since.
It was like carrying around a heavy backpack full of rocks, each rock being an attachment that didn’t serve me. I just dumped out all the rocks and continued down the same trail I was on but suddenly I could hear the birds chirping, I could smell the lavender fields, and I was lighter on my feet and grateful for the relief.
