It's funny how overattention aka 'can't see the forest for the trees' sometimes manifests.
Especially for folks on the spectrum. Like there was a conference for Ruby programmers, which is a language that has notions of symbols. You want symbol nostr, you write it like ':nostr'. Now someone thought, hey, you know what would be funny, if they had t-shirts with sex symbol, like ":sex". Well, it was all fun & games until someone told them, that for normies, it would read as '[colon] sex' (that's the official name for those two dots, for non-native speakers such as me, also it means...). So they allegedly stopped doing that.
Same for me with my nick (although they never diagnosed me). When looking for a nick to outlet my... let's say overactive side for lack of better terms, I remembered days of old, when I had played D&D and names had twists and backstories built around them. Wanted to pick a nickname that would be unique for that time, have some structure and while being self-explanatory, had a twist for the initiated. German has a good take on compound words, but I wanted NOT to associate my persona with German speaking, mainly because I know more Klingon than German, and in Klingon I can only say 'batlh tuqraj quvmoHjaj' (which means 'honor to your house', still waiting for the right occasion to geek that out). But you know which language has sort of an esoteric core and has compound words? Esperanto! What's more, you can put together suffixes 'em' for liking/loving something, 'a' for making it an adjective, and prefix it with 'sub'. Like an adjective you would use on someone who likes submissivity (without differentiating top/bottom position, which is also cool, because were I free-range, I would consider myself a switch). So my great nick was born!
...alas, it took me several years and accounts across three or four communities until I suddenly recognized that most people read it as 'submissive Ema'. 😮 I mean I have nothing against sissies, they have aspects of their lifestyle that are alluring, but I would never want to be one. Moreover with the name EMA I don't like. Well, it was too late, since I was on more sites with digital footprint, so I decided to #embracemistakes #originstory
