You're a placeholder, in a sense. Your love and character will help them understand their heavenly Father's, and when you can't be there for them, He will.

Homeschool. It's okay to be frugal and make it work on one income. They need you more than they need flashy stuff or endless activities, and stacking sats will help make that possible. With God's help, it can still be done.

Yeah... Don't drop the baby. Get some sleep.

Bless you!