the less i take that in the
more sensitive i get to it.
when i hear radio now, (or tv) i hear and feel a constant attempt to manipulate people. “think this, buy this”.
even the youtube algo is trying to manipulate. im being increasingly militant in lowering and being selective with input.
I thought maybe I was becoming less resilient but I like this framing.
More sensitive to it rather than numb due to constant exposure perfectly describes how I felt.
definitely more sensitive.
i am astonished by what i feel now, and how much clearer it is. but the hard part can be explaining it to people who are still steeped in it. they keep saying, “what do you mean? that is just something something.”
im like, no, this whole thing is a toxic juggernaut with bad starting points and foundations.
i mostly just nod and smile and try to get back to the farm.
i think the lie is that we have to be a part of that to be a part of a solution. i think the first part of the solution is getting out of it.
