ɪn mʏ ᴅeꜰense, ᴛʜe sʜɪᴛcoɪn/nosᴛr ɢuʏs were naɢɢɪnɢ me ᴛo aᴅoᴘᴛ aɪ ᴛooʟs ꜰor coᴅɪnɢ, anᴅ ᴘroʙaʙʟʏ ᴛʜaᴛ wouʟᴅ ʜave ʜeʟᴘeᴅ a ʟoᴛ esᴘecɪaʟʟʏ on ᴛʜe ɪn-ʜouse ᴘroᴊecᴛ ᴛʜaᴛ was mʏ ʟasᴛ ᴛʜɪnɢ wɪᴛʜ ᴛʜem. ʙuᴛ ʜonesᴛʟʏ, cʟauᴅe was ʙareʟʏ maᴛure aᴛ ᴛʜaᴛ ᴘoɪnᴛ as ꜰar as ɪ unᴅersᴛanᴅ ɪᴛ, anᴅ reaʟʟʏ, ɪᴛ ʜas onʟʏ ʙeen sɪnce oᴘus was reʟeaseᴅ anᴅ seᴛ ᴛo ᴅeꜰauʟᴛ ᴛʜaᴛ ᴛʜe ᴛooʟ reaʟʟʏ ʜas maᴛureᴅ. ɪn ᴛʜeɪr ᴅeꜰense, ɪ unᴅersᴛanᴅ ᴛʜe moᴛɪvaᴛɪons ʙeʜɪnᴅ wʜʏ ᴛʜeʏ were so ꜰocuseᴅ on creaᴛɪnɢ a socɪaʟ neᴛworᴋ ʙuᴛ ᴅesᴘɪᴛe mʏ consᴛanᴛ naɢɢɪnɢ ᴛʜeʏ never wenᴛ ꜰuʟʟ nosᴛr-ᴛarᴅ. wʜɪcʜ was a ʙɪɢ mɪsᴛaᴋe, ʙuᴛ aɢaɪn, ᴛʜeʏ were runnɪnɢ ouᴛ oꜰ ꜰunᴅɪnɢ anᴅ ᴛoo mucʜ was ɢoɪnɢ ᴛo ꜰunᴅɪnɢ worᴋ ᴛʜaᴛ reaʟʟʏ was ɢoɪnɢ nowʜere. anᴅ ɪ never ʜear aʙouᴛ ᴛʜe ɢuʏ wʜo connecᴛeᴅ me ᴛo aʟʟ ᴛʜɪs sᴛuꜰꜰ, anᴅ ᴘaveᴅ ᴛʜe waʏ ꜰor me ᴛo ʙecome a reʟaʏ ᴅev sᴘecɪaʟɪsᴛ, ʙʟess ʜɪm, ɪ ʜoᴘe ʜe ɪs ᴅoɪnɢ oᴋ, ɪ ᴅo ꜰeeʟ ᴛʜaᴛ ʜe was ᴅone a ʜarm ʙʏ ʜow reaᴅɪʟʏ ᴛʜeʏ ᴛʜrew moneʏ aᴛ ʜɪm, ᴛo ᴅo ᴛʜɪnɢs ᴛʜaᴛ ᴅɪᴅn'ᴛ ᴛurn ouᴛ ᴛo ʜave marᴋeᴛ reʟevance.
ɪ was ɪn a ɢenuɪneʟʏ ᴅɪꜰꜰɪcuʟᴛ sɪᴛuaᴛɪon wʜen ᴛʜe ꜰɪrsᴛ ᴛʜɪnɢ ᴘoᴘᴘeᴅ ouᴛ, anᴅ ɪᴛ was ᴛʜanᴋs ᴛo ʏou (ʙro, ɪ can'ᴛ ᴛʜanᴋ ʏou enouɢʜ ꜰor ʜeʟᴘɪnɢ me wʜɪʟe ɪ was on ᴛʜe ʙones oꜰ mʏ arse) anᴅ ʙecause oꜰ ᴛʜaᴛ, ɪ ꜰeeʟ a ᴅeʙᴛ oꜰ ɢraᴛɪᴛuᴅe ꜰor ɪᴛ. so ɪ wɪsʜ ɪ couʟᴅ ʜeʟᴘ someʜow.