Thanks Rabble!
I kicked that nest little on purpose. I was on atproto very early, among the first 40k people - and I chose atproto over Nostr because I thought it was a technology with greater scaling potential (not perfect, but which can bring freedom to more people). I saw atproto as the opposite approach to nostr, but converging to a very similar destination point.
But the mood of the last few months clearly anticipated how wrong I was, that it had become just a decentralization theater. My assumption that the community would move towards decentralization was completely wrong and naive.
The rage that has now finally confirmed my suspicions and given me the strength to leave and build something more meaningful. So i'm here :)