watching the fawning of atheists over dawkins and nietsche i'd say that they don't get it either. or nietsche. but dawkins is a total satan lite evangelist.

see, the thing is, i know a few things about big numbers and randomness and chaos theory. i don't think it's enough to explain some of the things i've seen and read about and experience on a daily basis. i used to think it was "magick" but after i fell right into the hole of determinism i became sure that this was what God was. not all powerful. all knowing. and offering hints to progress the journey. i came to think of God as like the Game Designer.

because life is a game, of sorts. you can choose many different outcomes but the best ones are the ones that came to you in a dream, or were whispered in your ear by who knows who.

also, one of the things you learn when you study cryptography and number theory is that there is something in there, something spooky, and eternal. deep in physics there is also something funny going on that doesn't fit the "there is no purpose and there is eternal decay into the void" story.

lao tzu wrote that there is a beginning, but there is no end. who started it?