Dude I was doing this long before I had unrestricted internet access, and if anything, I was much more fucked up BEFORE accessing the internet. Before the internet I was obsessed with gore and genital mutilation. One Google search and that went away. Before the internet I was shoving feathers up my urethra because I was so pent up and I didn't know what else to do. And then I found a wikipedia page on masturbation. Boy am I glad I started jacking off the right way, there are many stories of people doing permanent damage to their body because they don't know any way of relieving their horniness that doesn't cause bodily trauma. Before access to the internet my porn was looking up words in a DICTIONARY! And in other sterile academic books for that matter. I thought vagina was pronounced vag-in-uh! And I have never been abused either.

Not that all sexual urges should be acted on in the most concrete and direct possible way though. Would you mind telling me about your two paraphilias? I know you aren't technically fully anonymous, but I aint no snitch