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Meh. Emotionally i’m always good. At least that’s how I project. I feel very…..pushed aside in my marriage. Certainly not first, or second or even 5th or 6th in line of importance. Still love her but the “in love” is waning. I love my job but it’s at a stand still. I’m searching for something more in life and seriously considering a change in careers and a move across country. Physically i’m in constant pain. I stay very fit for my age but it’s taking it’s toll. I need hernia surgery and shoulder surgery but can’t afford them. My achilles tendons feel as if someone has thrust fish hooks through them and pulls at them with each step I take. My vision is worsening and I have constant headaches. I have a birthday coming next week and i’m becoming content with the fact my time is relatively short. Overall i’m actually a happy person and enjoy the small things every day and find something that puts a smile on my face. How are you?

Feeling fine. Hopeful at the moment. How are you?

Happy as in happy how about you?

Hey Dawn, Glad you asked.

Where to begin. Nah, all is good Just passing time while in the fiat mines. at this minute, wondering why BTC isn't going higher.

sup with you?

I'm at a really strange stage. I have the choice to choose from many potentially great futures, and I have no idea what I want to do, or what I am here for. It's nice to know that I have some free time to alter the course of my life, but if I can't decide on a course, then this opportunity is somewhat wasted. The result is that I'm hopefull and frustrated at the same time.

Just got the message that my friend died. We all knew that it’s coming , she’s been fighting cancer for the last few years. But the fact of knowing doesn’t change anything. She was an exceptional person: as a psychologist and counsellor she has helped a lot of ppl, transformed their lives in a positive way. And the way she handled her illness was sth I never saw before - “do not go gentle into that good night” , no complaints , no despair or giving up, she was working with ppl almost till the very end. Iron Lady :) I know it’s a selfish feeling - but I will miss her always, and a lot of ppl outside of her family will miss her. I think this is an ultimate test on life - whether there will be at least one person outside of you family who will miss you when you are gone, when your body is gone :) I hope you are doing well :)