Love it, gonna grab it for my desktop!

This is something I struggle with a lot. Avoidance behaviour.

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Had a terrible night, thus when I awoke to my alarm - I snoozed and snoozed and finally overslept. Missed my stand up meeting.

Honestly I don't care, it feels nice because I hate those meetings. I never feel like I have anything real or good to share, mostly because I don't do much on a day to day basis. I do nothing, then everything the day before the deadline.

I've never been any other way. #productivity #procrastination

For me, it leads to more spelling errors because of sausage fingers mispressing constantly. I keep it off though, because otherwise the keyboard will constantly separate words which shouldn't be separated in my native tounge, and that's honestly worse than some little spelling errors haha

Posted a "draft" to my bio on #StackerNews.

Writing by hand is my preferred way to consume my thoughts.

I use #Rhodia goal books with my gold colored #Lamy al-star prepped with a #Diamine ink named Autumn Oak.

It's been a while.

I just reset.

I'm picking up the pieces, starting to sort them into piles then I'll start to build the puzzle.

#productivity #getdisciplined

The solution is to take action. The solution is simple. But why do I have such trouble and have to actively force myself, every second. It's draining. Properly exhausting.

I can barely do one thing right, and that leaves me deflated. How does one endure? How does one inject life back into oneself?

I will Do what I must. There's no point to my guilt more than to make me not redo my recent failures. The guilt is my receipt for my actions. Accept it, release it, do not revisit it.

#getdisciplined

“If you achieve something good with hard work, the labour passes away, but the good remains. If you do something shameful for the sake of pleasure, the pleasure passes, but the shame remains.” - Musonius Rufus

This quote just rings true to me. I, just as many others have lived both sides. I have done so many shameful things the past 5 years in terms of not showing up and doing the work, and I can tell you, the shame really remains.

#quote #stoicism #getdisciplined #lastchance

Chose to forever block time sinks from my phone via Stay Focused android app.

The apps are also removed from phone. #getdisciplined

Chose a Study With Me which spans 3 hours, and 50/10 min pomodoros

I struggled to start, flipping through messaging apps, reddit and other forums like stacker.news googling shit, read through nostr posts et.c.

I can't remember why, but then I started. I still struggled to focus in the beginning. Then I kept going.

Skipped the first break - I am behind on my work so I believe I must today. Forgot the second break, because I was into deep.

It seems to me I struggle really hard with starting. Crazy amount of friction. And from experience, I know it will push back harder tomorrow.

This is tough. #getdisciplined

Planned a bit, using a simple version of the Eisenhower matrix to prioritize. New, tho part I always fail at: execution.

Now I will put on a Study with Me from YouTube, add some lounge jazz and block everything out for a 25 minute pomodoro. Then 5 min stretch. And then repeat. #getdisciplined

Old me is going to die. New me is going to live. First up, planning. #getdisciplined