actually, the real "subversion" was when an actual NOT LIBERAL WOMAN expressed that the cars had major issues and were hackable and the ships kept exploding. I otherwise didn't know shit about Elon and didn't care, but I was right that the attention on both my ex and me was bringing all sorts of hideously bad characters into the mix. safe to say we both got swept up in it, and whatever backlash I got, I just took it.
I thought it was more important to understand what was happening NOW in politics and in the government, because I'd done enough research on what was happening back then. that whole situation showed me the reality of what these same people were still creating, and that's why I never cared to take the bait.
the answer I never got answered was why Elon wanted to meet ME in the first place? like, sorry I got freaked out by that video call that wasn't you in a black wig and black sunglasses but with the same shaped head and voice.
(I didn't know he thought I was trash back then but it makes so much more sense now!)
well, I don't think he's trash but he's clearly got issues if his baby mama was allegedly trying to produce a "tape" to give to the Jews and the media ("Epstein's clients") for blackmail or whatever.
literally, I cannot imagine how dysfunctional some rich people are and I'm glad I never sold my soul to it, despite how much a man looks at me and sees everything he hates.
it feels good to know that that's out in the open now. I don't hate Elon at all, but this whole lie was treacherous and it's not much of a defense to say they were "investigating a terrorist". I'd honestly rather settle for "boys will be boys" and just be done with it.
like, how's my writing about your weird stalker behavior ruining your life again? you allegedly were the one who hacked my phone and found pictures of bruises and zero nudes, idiot.
that's probably the point where these men thought, "well shit, there's no way to disengage from this entire thing safely." well, yeah, cause I want to leave and this guy is milking this situation for Elon's affection and claiming I'm gonna MeToo him. I was not. my ass was trying to leave finally after years of being stuck in the same cycle my ex was. it was tragic all around.
Elon apparently must not have liked that I was getting attention from places that were probably unsafe or something, so I will credit him for that. Hollywood is a bad place and I'm smart enough to reject that on my own. but the rest of it, especially this end stage "I gotta put her in prison" shit is weird. like. the war you started raged on until the bitter end and you and your baby mama were behind an orchestrated porn revenge tape.
at the very least, he had no problem with controlling situations to lead to it.
I mean, it's heaven or hell but if your heaven is my hell and your hell is my heaven then perhaps the logical solution is to just talk face and face and hash it out like adults.
needless to say, zero attempts to do so have been made.
I'm glad there are changes happening in the government but when there's billions of dollars backing a foreign nation's infiltration of the government, and I don't care which one it is, I think that's got to change. dudes obviously got some very dark secrets if he always even remotely close to epstein. I was never all that liberal or democrat so I think a lot of the blame game is actually hypocritical projections.
my ex apparently told him some wild stories but left out a lot of information, so that's where the vendetta started, and obviously (and allegedly) that's where ashley jumped in to, like, "stir the pot". but the important thing is that most of what made me eligible for the influencer Nuremberg Trials is actually what's proving itself to be the problem: too much waste, illegals, liberalism, and lies.
sucks that a major portion of the attack on free speech and even free banking is done by a Jewish coalition that wants to protect people like epstein and their reputations and also keep their Moneychanger businesses and media companies afloat.
I just find it crazy that Zionism could unite Trump and Hillary Clinton on a common "antisemitic" enemy if there was no pushback. and it's also crazy that Elon has no concept of the right except for a couple years of supporting Trump. even when he was supporting Desantis and Ramaswamy I was like...how about no.
frankly, I don't care if the man hates my guts because of my ex's version of the story, but there's good and bad in everyone and everything. had no idea my ex was friends with him but even finding out at the time wouldn't have made me mad cause I thought Elon was a cool guy back then, I just didn't like the cars at that point.
gives a lot of "I'm a gamer and a real nerd and you can't like the same things as me!" vibes 😂 like, buddy, I also grew up on video games and computers and love space, just never adopted the attitude and lifestyle. but I'm happy for you! none of what happened, at least from my end, was to persecute a guy who even I know just had a drinking problem and had issues just like the rest of us. I wouldn't say that what I did to him was worse than what he did to me – it was all bad.
my goal was to drop some information and see how the world responded. sucks that people on both sides of the debate have been incredibly violent and self-righteous, though I see this less from those like me on the right who know the core of it is true. I think you do have to be kinda retarded to be like, "omg! Nazi!" and not even do the reading, but that's where we are.
wokeness was clearly stripped down of its facades to show the true face (both sides) of American politics: do not EVER criticize Israel!
unironically, this was also a problem in that relationship: almost every single thing was always my fault.
my father was the same way for a long time. as much as I've forgiven him, there's still that side and I've seen it many times. I don't blame all men for this, not even the religious or super political ones. it's not a MAGA thing to me, because literally both parties are harboring and protecting epstein's clients, but the rage and denial is probably why this situation has gotten to the point that now the richest man in the world's baby mama and my ex have said and done whatever.
like, there was an incident where allegedly his best friend (who was staying at our house while we were on vacation) read a journal that I left on purpose, on a shelf in the open, that was "racist" because I was honestly just getting tired of hanging out around borrachos all the time. almost all the friends were woke af and that was difficult to be around, too.
but apparently he thinks, in some way, we broke up cause he supported Trump and I didn't. like, buddy, I wish the truth was that convenient. factually, MAGA was no surprise to me and I don't have any problems with it except the harboring of sex traffickers and pedos under the guise of "male rights" or whatever. I mean, no one wants to be falsely accused of anything, but that whole crusade is just straight up denial in this case.
my case against my ex was always predicated on the notion that if he was doing weird shit like recording, stalking, hacking, and invading my privacy so that he knew EVERYTHING all the time – and this of course, happening without my knowledge – that this is not legal and not ok. he did actually admit to it once, while curled underneath a blanket sobbing like a baby who just got caught. I feel like Elon WOULD help him cover up that part because he allegedly does the same to all his wives and girlfriends. THAT'S THE RUMOR, AT LEAST.
the crazy thing is that, if a man was like, "I'm keeping tabs on everything for our safety" I would be on board with that, but it's gotta be done intelligently, ya know?
but alas, my exes family had this thing where they'd always try to catch me doing something, like they'd sneak recordings and just do weird petty shit, which I noticed and got sick of instantly. I eventually started hating spending time with his family after his BIL made a crude joke about his daughter's stuffed animal that even HIS best friend thought was weird. then my ex said something like, "well, victims usually become the predators, so you're probably the predator," even though all I said was, "didn't that comment make you uncomfortable? like, that was weird, right?"
it was all like hyperspeed downhill from there and that's why this all strikes me as retarded.
can't even tell you how many people were apparently being bribed to just confirm this theory that I'm a nutjob who made it all up for clout. uh, no, this is just how denial works in families where there's incest and abuse. I wouldn't even be writing about it if these people never got involved somehow, but since it's a factor in this very fucked up story 🤷🏻♀️
I do love my family tho, all of them, regardless of how in denial they are and how ugly the backlash has been for my entire life. I'm used to it, and used to how my words get twisted to the point that it feeds their sense of religious denial about the fact that there were CHILD MOLESTERS in the church I grew up in.
I was called a liar at the age of 10, which was terrifying, but if I had to pick telling the truth or being accepted, I'd still tell the truth.
that said, I don't wish harm on anyone, and no, I did not attempt to murder Elon or my ex or anyone for that matter. I'm also not willing to be self-righteous fodder for a group of people who lie like they breathe as politicians, or for the media, or somebody's baby mama cause she wants to prove her fidelity by destroying the same woman she allegedly wanted to continue the trend of censorship on.
sorry, Ash, but your "investigation" was total one-sided bullshit.
I'm so sorry that my worry after being stalked by people on the epstein list for harboring "denigrative" knowledge of their criminality made me skeptical of a man who allegedly trained right alongside jeffrey epstein in "manipulation tactics" or whatever. omg I never saw it coming where the guy would be telling everyone I'm a lunatic terrorist 🙄😂
Behind every hand-knotted rug, many skilled artists have contributed their expertise.
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that's incredible work!
they do read drafts at x 😂
I can sense the grief and pain of my own people but I'm not willing to bend my concept of freedom to use words openly and without fear to their levels of acceptability.
I am choosing America First and America Only.
this but inside the Twitter
yeah sorry I think I was cross-addressing the campus protest situation at Columbia and rambling about how I don't like when things get violent and acrimonious. somewhat unrelated.
I don't like that university students went from debate club to protest clubs. that is honestly what they feel like and some of them just do it for clout. there is no accountability on the part of the true aggressors. all should have a right to represent their views and use their own voices. period.
I knew I was done with hipsters when they tried to cancel Prince. can we just listen to the music, like make up your own lyrics to sing over his whenever you start to get uncomfortable. learn the art of saying whatever you need to say to survive when you're surrounded by people who cannot accept your existence.
I know this about my people and that's why the messages had to be hammered in. I'm sorry and I hope you accept my apology for whatever it is I'm guilty of or a scapegoat for.
hopefully no one is ever in a situation where it does seem like all these bad things that are happening to yourself and the people around you and in the world have a single source and you see it in your own.
it's very sad. my Jewish side is very sad about having to admit that we have literally committed genocides of whites and other ethnicities, unilaterally, because literally all benefit from it – for the Sephardics probably even less so, if they are, indeed, the more egrarian of the bunch.
nevertheless, a unilateral offense is akin to a single sin in their eyes and not in my own. the Christian perspective is that we are all sinners and therefore so are they. this thing which steals, kills, and destroys is very evil and deserves absolutely ZERO funding.
I say if these people can't make it all stop then who is to blame? THEY ARE.
the true story here is that even the victimized can abuse, but let's not try to pretend jeffrey epstein was a victim, ya know? simple math like that is missing from the equation.
whatever wizardry has come from this new techmaster mentality still makes me kinda sick to think about. I mean how did human relations evolve to us just staring into the void wondering what the future actually holds, if anything at all!
like I said, I must have had some guardian angels saving me from my enemies I didn't know I had. not like that. I just hoped that whatever it was, everyone would resolve it peacefully.
hardest thing to do is to be at peace in the middle of a war, even those that come to your front door – strangers and stalkers, gawkers. for what.
needless to say, there was never going to be a nice way to say it. the Spaniard in me was partly mad at myself for the self-inflicted irony.
who of us misunderstands the nature of The Beast?
I'm sorry and are you sorry, too??
buyer beware but who's selling?
all I can tell you now is that if I didn't say those "bad" things I would get to go to the spa instead. actually, that's not a bad idea after having like all these rich and famous people critiquing me as I suffer from a rapidly deteriorating spine. it's an issue – deadly even. I should have been getting treated for it but it takes months to get a quick appointment with a doctor in a place filled with illegal immigrants, who seem to have been benefitting from the state.
it seems that the people who literally get elected to the government or are just unelected bureaucrats just kill people who threaten to expose them.
I feel lucky for surviving so long. idk who played a hand in that (though I do suspect in both good and bad ways) but thank you ❤️
yes, I know he thinks I'm a hardened, lunatic criminal who needs to be locked up forever. I would not have wanted to stay in my old relationship even if he did get rich or was secretly rich. I have no idea what happened to him before, during, and after I left and I assumed nothing happened because I was going through my own shit.
like my mother said, "it's over, we survived."
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