It was girls and boys at the school I worked at.

Other social media feeds - feels like they are a less pure place to leave something buried. Perhaps that doesn’t make sense though - good question. Can you imagine what Facebook 250 years from now is like?

What really appeals to me about Nostr is that regardless of interactions, or current events, messages live on like time capsules. Curious if this was the appeal for others?

#TimeCapsuleTech #grownostr #plebchain #introductions

part 2

I think I have a tendency that when I feel something that doesn’t feel too bad, to wait and see if the body can heal from it on its own. Like with the ophthalmic migraines, and with the little bump under the left eyelid.

I had a whole narrative / rationale for each of these things.

Narrative 1: The ophthalmic migraines are related to being in a toxic work culture during a stressful time, and maybe the fluorescent lights in the room I worked in plus increased screen time led to it … and it just stuck even after I’m not working at that job anymore.

Narrative 2: As for the intermittent irritation in the left corner of my left eye, one time, I peeled back my eyelid and actually saw a tiny bump there. So even though recently, I looked for that bump and didn’t see it there anymore, I was like, well what else could it be? Maybe the bump shifted inward.

So, what I need to remember is that - yes even though there are many things doctors cannot do, there are also a whole range of milder things that doctors have specific tools and treatments for, which can actually fix / resolve things. Like, finding out that the left lens prescription is too high, and seeing the cause of irritation under the eyelid and removing the “debris”.

So, if you feel something, even if small, make an appt with an appropriate doctor to check it out.

In that spirit, I will be also making an appointment to check out my left ear, and to get a dental cleaning. And … overcome the fear/anxiety associated with potentially discovering more serious health problems. *sigh*

#eyehealth #vision

the March cover page is about the main experience of March. Going to the eye doctor for the first time since April 2019 (before COVID happened). So it’s been … almost 6 years 😖

The two visits solved two major issues. I feel like quality of life has been majorly improved.

The eye doctor found out that my left lens was overpowered by 2 “steps”. This was important because my main worry were ophthalmic migraines I’d get once a month, coinciding with my period. It would usually start with an “aura” in the right eye, followed by a migraine on the left side. Then a full day of feeling fatigued and a ‘migraine residue’ feeling. He said the over-powered left lens could be contributing because then there’s an imbalance? So first I got a basic free pair with the correct prescription (golden frames) which was covered by my health insurance. Then I got some $20 frames from Zenni.com and found a place that could make transition lenses for a lower price (clear purple frames). Transition lenses are amazing. I highly recommend them to anyone over sunglasses. They don’t change the colors much, just adds a slightly cooler hue over everything, while keeping things very even. It also really helps with a sensitivity to light/dark contrasts that is new for me.

The 2nd visit was related to a small irritating bump I was feeling under my left eyelid. I was convinced it was a tiny bump that was growing on the inner eyelid, except it wasn’t. Turns out it was “debris”, and he just removed it. And now my left eye feels comfortable all the time.

So these two experiences have taught me something about myself (re: my attitudes towards going to see doctors). But this post is too long and I need a break so, that’ll be part two.

#eyehealth #vision

Last night I reread the ending of A Tale for the Time Being, by Ruth Ozeki. I had forgotten how the plot had been resolved… It was a complex braiding of different people’s feelings and their choices and actions. To put it simply, it involved Ruth in the present time, and Nao in a past time (but it also involved Nao’s great-grandma in a dream). The emotions hit differently this time for me. The last time I read this book was before my own grandma died. Reading the ending, where Nao’s great-grandma is dying, and how before she did, she encouraged Nao and her dad to live (生) … was suddenly way more emotional for me then the last time I read it. That time, years ago, I suppose the feeling was like, ‘yes, this makes sense. This is one of the puzzle pieces that resolves things.’ Sad, but satisfying.

I woke up this morning with this chorus section in my head, “Hold onto hope if you got it. Don’t let it go for nobody. They say that dreaming is free. I wouldn’t care what it cost me.” I couldn’t place it at first, like ‘ooh this is a familiar song, but who is it by?’ (It’s the song ‘26’ by Hayley Williams of Paramore)

Oh, I just noticed a funny connection. Towards the end of the story, Ruth and her husband Oliver have realized that currently, in their present time, Nao is not 16 anymore, but probably around 26 or 27 years old.

Connecting these two works, the ‘hope’ in the song refers to how at the end of the story, even though Nao’s personal story has resolved for Ruth, she still doesn’t know what has happened with her, since Nao lived in Japan, during the year 2011, when the Tohoku earthquake and tsunami happened, which then also led to the Fukushima Daiichi nuclear disaster.

So the book ends with Ruth writing a letter back to Nao. Earlier, she and her husband had realized that somehow, by believing in Nao and what she wrote ‘to them’ in her diary, they were actually causing the diary to continue to a conclusion, rather than ending abruptly. And their belief in Nao, somehow resonated back towards themselves. So even though Ruth has no way of knowing if Nao had died along with so many others in the tsunami, she wrote her a letter, hoping that her belief in her still carries meaning.

I honestly don’t understand how some accounts have 10s of thousands of followers, like I feel like I’m basically communicating with most of Nostr. I don’t mind just don’t understand.

Samsung phones are ridiculously expensive and not even very good. Not to mention being ugly as hell.

Better off getting a Pixel nine for about $500 these days.

having one of the worst days and going online was a mistake cya all tomorrow maybe

people think that cats are less personable because they don't have eyebrows like dogs do

that's because even though dog hearing is nearly as fancy as cats, cats have fully articulated ears that can point around about 180 degrees and their high frequency hearing is better

the reason why is that they are smaller and their prey are smaller so they have to be a lot more precise to catch them

so, cat's ears got all the motor circuitry that went into dog eyebrows, and the way that the cat is posing its ears is the cat version of eyebrows

just takes a bit to get used to how they use them to articulate their feelings, because they do double duty as highly sensitive sensors and not just stupid facial expressions

When I first worked in schools 24 years ago, ALL the UK kids used it as a diss. They were too young to really understand what they were saying. Maybe Reddit has banned using 'gay' as a diss?

an American friend of mine who lived in china for around 10 years told me he thinks 2 of the most nationalistic countries in the world are China and America. no wonder the two peoples despise each other they much

It’s not a misconception — it’s political propaganda.

oh you meant the ACTUAL comment, my bad.

it's linked in this thread elsewhere

So gay