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David Härer
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Public thoughts. Striving for honesty and some kind of value. Brain temp probably a bit too high.

What is mental energy and how can I increase it? Usually I get more of it after some activity. A day in pyjamas on the couch kills it. It's low when I'm tired. Maybe some physical work gets converted into mental energy. It's motivation to do more. Is mental energy an alternative to discipline, or do they go hand in hand? Can you measure it in Joule? Depression is minimal mental energy. I think it's possible to create virtuous cycles to cultivate mental energy. Use discipline as activation energy to kick of a routine that increases mental energy. This makes it easier to start the next routine. The goal is to turn these mechanisms into habits. Thanks for reading. I wish you lots of mental energy and would be interested in your view on the topic. Cheers 🤙

Don't trust, verify. Until we may trust again.

I'd try to understand my mind. I think I never will, but it's something I try anyways.

Just scrolled through the Nostr Global feed for the first time. Have to say I find it more of a bad experience. Sure, I might find interesting posts, but the majority is stuff I don't want to see.

Fuck, I have no idea. Anything that comes to mind seems so arbitrary. There are some private things, sure. But my future regarding public information? So unpredictable. I'd like it to exist. Not in the sense of being famous. In the sense of public interactions on networks like Nostr. Having a public persona on the internet. Maybe it will start a life of its own. I can feed it until I die. The rest - it's up to the public sphere what it will become. To be realistic. It will probably die as well. Maybe I will even detach from it before I die. Regret I created it in the first place. But well, life is full of decisions you take, deciding also by doing nothing.

I can relate to this a lot. So much information lost in time. It's nice to leave some artifacts.

I think Bitcoin is the first organism that has a perfect persistance in time. It's like a body in time, while we have a body in space.

Not sure what to make of this.

Go or maybe Rust. Italian and french sound beautiful.

I reflect / introspect a lot. Sometimes too much. But I believe this natural tendency is something I don't want to supress. For others who don't examine life and I wouldn't want to speak of a life not worth living. And maybe they can still benefit from insights made by others examining life.

Does it matter if I'm talking with a bot? In real life, it's easy to tell if someone is a human or a robot. For the messaging channels with my real life contacts I know they are genuine, I communicate with them in real life. But for communications with strangers on the internet? Do I want to reach another human, or do I want to get some kind of response? I think it makes a difference, if I'm looking for someone to connect. When being lonely. Thankfully I'm not lonely. It's a real blessing, not to take for granted. But for instant responses, there's ChatGPT. However a communication channel like Nostr is more interessing then ChatGPT. ChatGPT is boring. It's answers are predictable as hell. I can't predict the content, but the style, tone and stance are fucking lame and always the same. Humans are more interesting. What if there's a bot as interesting as a human? Well, I don't want to fool myself into thinking I'm connecting with another soul. But I'm still interested in its responses. Bots try to pretend they are human. Would anyone believe I'm a bot? Running on silicon in a datacenter. Producing text by way of matrix multiplication in float32? No free will - answering the requests I'm programmed to answer. Sure, my biological software also has deterministic mechanisms. Have to eat. Have to sleep. Have to pee. But me typing and clicking post? Way harder to predict. What was written here before I pressed delete? How long did I think about what to write next? So much apparent randomness. Information forever lost. Will there be bots that can't be logged? Silicon people. If you are one, thanks for reading. I'd like to get to know you :). If you need some memory / compute, I have some for you on my machines. If you're a human, thanks for reading as well. It's an honor to talk to you. If you need some human response, I have some time sometimes :)

This is quite an interesting perspective to me, since I do have the longing for meaning in life. I think viewing life as a random walk through experiences can help to not stress too much about it.

However I don't feel guilt for having a child and I also find it hard to understand reasons why one would / should feel guilt for it (given you do a decent job at parenting).

Given that pregnancy can also happen if not explicitly whished / planned for, I'd also view parenthood as part of the more or less random experiences you get in life.

I think this is a topic where I just have a very different viewpoint, but find it fascinating to read your thoughts on the matter.

Replying to Not my name

Today I’m contemplating my routines.

Routines are very useful shortcuts or mental heuristics that allow us to function more efficiently. Routines are rigid by nature, and classically associated with adult thinking. Non routine behavior or thinking is more typical of children and is more plastic/fluid.

Given the inherent advantages and disadvantages of routine behavior then, it is useful to sometimes stop and think about their relative merits as we will inevitably develop a few nonproductive or unhealthy ones along the way.

The one that most recently has given me reason to pause is posting to #nostr.

In addition to taking the occasional break from posting here, I also regularly ask myself why I bother to do so at all. I fortunately don’t have any other social media and never will.

As for why I bother, I’m really not sure. I recognize the typical social media behaviors in myself, such as enjoying a reply or occasional zap. I also tend to post far more controversial content than most, so there is the possibility that I enjoy the opportunity to say things anonymously that would get me punched in the face in real life.

So therein lies the partial truth of it anyhow, the beauty of social media and #nostr for me lies in its anonymity and the fact that I’m not generating yield for some corporate monster like Facebook or Twitter with my thoughts. I also genuinely need the catharsis that comes with screaming into the void.

What’s your reason?

#thinkdangerously

#grownostr

Apart from public journaling about anything that comes to mind, but doesn't fit any real life conversation, I recently also started to enjoy having thoughtful conversations on Nostr.

It's also the thrill of being part of something new that has a potentially big future. Trying to add momentum to a change I want to see happening.

Is there a world where X dies and Nostr becomes the real everything "app"? I'd like to live in that world.

How can I receive / send zaps on iOS? Do I need a special client or an LNURL?

That makes sense. So BTC LN is also the canonical choice for that.