does that make me a liar?
or am i drawing inspiration from whatever minor gestures come to me
in gentle human range experimenting calibrating softly softly
it meant to me, be way more mindful
go way more veggie as you wish however you want, maybe just fish is a cool place to find equilibrium, drop it at any time my body says: no more. i need red meat.
an inspiration came to me that i felt aligned with. i was upset about the lack of unspoiled animal protein in gaza. like palestinians are beneath deserving animal protein. the rest of the world may have this except them. they are not allowed. only they are not. they are vermin. they cannot be 'saved'.
hurt my heart. inspiration came to me. that i will abstain from meat as long as they are forced to.
the inspiration came gently, it was an offer
felt right to me
does this mean i became a totalitarian vegan?
absolutely not.
i read the four agreements
"Be impeccable with your word"
"Do not take anything personally"
"Do not make assumptions"
"Always do your best"
cool within reason that's a thing to have to work with. not to overwork into perfection. just like.. to take it as a hallmark card
"seasons greetings" hey? that's a nice sentiment. the seasons greeting me. i read, i smile. gently gently
if i wanted to meet the author who wrote the four agreements
would that author have a list of every time i was full of shit. is that author the lie tabulator? or is that author like: "hey thanks for liking my book."
cos like again, were the four agreements written to enslave me? is that what this is? that author writes something i like and that means im bound to it? tortured by it? fucked by it?
abuse absolutely over every line abuse
there would be so many flags on play already it wouldnt even be funny
so beyond so not ok
so me, specifically me?
in a situation like:
"be impeccable this very instant or they all die"
bro?
im lying
to have tact, to be strategic
"impeccable with your word"
if someone said to me:
if you dont tell me the truth i am going to murder your family
if, hypothetically under capture it got that extreme
if there is a spectrum between being impeccable and being full of shit
if it is a line
flawless on one end ....... full of shit on the other
the ocean
sailing
undertow
a sailor sailing against the wind
how to do that?
tacking
do i think i need to be without flaw? that i need to write without flaw?
to ask to be without flaw
is to ask for something not human
not in human range
it is inhumane
1. to be impeccable with your words
flawless ok what is flaw
the four agreements, to me, specifically me, were not written for me to abuse myself with them.
what does it mean ~to me~? specifically just to me?
it means, sounds good to me
BUT as in NUANCE as in
1. how to apply
2. to what degree to apply
elaborate:
when it comes to something like, the four agreements
wikipedia:
"Be impeccable with your word"
"Do not take anything personally"
"Do not make assumptions"
"Always do your best"
what does it mean? to have read the four agreements or the wiki article about it or a blog about it and to be like: that sounds good that sounds doable thats me i like that i wish everyone was like this
slowly & very clearly
very intentionally
very seriously
my job is this
ok
know me, what i am, so you can choose to be not me, however you want to do that, or in alignment with me, on whatever matter however you choose
re: on capture
re: 50 shades
re: general audience consul
thank you for patience, for understanding
✌️
gaza
hey let's get this singed & scorched sootie little enfp back comfortably extroverted is such a minor concern it isnt even funny compared to what matters whats happening out there
im behind now
on my youtube people
on the news
on emails
on sewing
out of the loop on everything
i have to return to it
im not worried about it at the same time, cant spend much time on there working on it. can, in little bits, like top of the mountain today so crowded up there the weekend was i ok or did i flip i was ok thats good
doesnt matter if its weeks or months or years
would be cool to handle things like going to a greedy peasant event in person
to want to and to let that tumble into being able to into letting into allowing at ease