Its ok. I finally shitposted. And nostr is my skidmark to prove it!

Finished the jar today. Now what to do with the rest of the honey? May play some punch-myself-in-the-face with it later. I have issues throwing anything away that I paid for.

I'm going to call bullshit. Farts are not an aerosol of shit. Farts are gas, not microscopic solids. Sure, as the gas passes through the shit storage, it may pick up some molecules along the way, but I would seriously doubt that it meaningfully affects the resultant odor.

Digestion processes allow bacteria to do its digestive process on whatever is consumed, allows it to react against various acids, and some of the biochemical reactions result in gases being produced, including (but not only) methane.

The gasses are then purged from your system. Some of the gasses have odors, but farts tend to be more unpleasant than belches.

Personally, I would absolutely confirm that consuming and digesting plants produce a wider variety of gasses, and specifically gasses that tend to be more offensive to our senses. Plants also take longer to digest, resulting in more rot or fermentation. Fermentation itself requires sugars, and produces gasses. Plants have sugars. There is a wider range of bacteria involved in digesting plants as well, and the sugars in plants fuel the bacteria, who metabolize portions of the plants and release their own gasses through their own digestive processes.

I once tried to use a lot of soy products because I thought I was sensitive to lactose. The soy milk especially gave me some of the worst smelling gas I can remember.

Now as someone who consumes little or no plants, I rarely have digestive gasses, and when I do, they are much more mild on odor.

No, animal meat does not "rot" in your intestines. It is largely broken down by stomach acids before it even enters the intestines, and very little waste is left at all to pass through the intestine. Think about how flesh is removed from bone using lye, and the resultant sludge solution that is largely liquid. It is overall a far more efficient digestion process, and happens quickly - 15 minutes to a couple hours. The intestinal length and volume of purely carnivorous animals is evidence of this efficiency. Our human intestines have surely grown in length and volume to adapt to our omnivorous diets, especially over the last few millenia (very recent, in evolutionary scale) with the advent of agriculture.

For more information regarding meat digestion, just look to interviews with meat-only eaters who also have ostomies, where their waste is diverted to an external bag instead of being allowed to take its normal intestinal path.

Does this mean I will have relay issues when moving between nostr clients (will changes made in your client affect or reset what I may have currently for all clients that I use that also have relay control) - because that would be a dealbreaker.

Also, if I make a change to a relay list in another client, will that change alter or reset what I had set up in your client?

Might learn enough C# to do what I currently do with powershell and ms sql, just maybe a little better and more portable.

What does it mean, to ask?

Specifically, to ask something of someone else?

Dealing with humans that have all your answers can be exhausting. GN.

A gift, given freely, is its own reward.

My life peaked in some ways when I was 7 years old. That was the last time I can say that I wasn't on the struggle bus.

Today I am content with struggle. I am where I am, and this ride has taught me repeatedly that I grow with each struggle overcome. This too shall pass - but it also shall strengthen and fuel me for next struggle.

I like running social media at 10%. I find this is the way I like it best. I found this in Satellite. I've tried Amethyst again, and it just feels like taking a rural boy and putting him in Times Square NYC - overstimulation, stress, anxiety. I prefer the simplicity of my happy 10%.

Here's another update to this round of testing. I saw my drug dealer, he ordered the CAC score. Regardless of the results, my path is clear, much as I explained above. I'm centered on the goal of a 26 BMI. That means that I will be harder on myself than I have been, eliminating many things after I am done with my current supply. My general goal is to really get down to beef (steak or burger), crab, salmon, tallow, butter, eggs, salt, water, and coffee. I may still occasionally have milk or cheese. Generally, pork scares me right now. Not happy with what they are allowed (or even encouraged) to do to pigs and not have to even label it as being done. If I can find a trusted source of pork, I'd be more open to it. I'm going to eliminate cured meats, already was planning this. Before I was OK with slowly bringing my weight down, provided all else was going ok. Now that changed.

My wife asked for clarification on what I was going to be eating now, so I sent her my preferences in 2 lists (what I would eat, if she cooked it, and what I might eat occasionally but was generally trying to avoid.) We agreed that she probably wouldn't cook for me much anymore, and I am fine with that - but it is really hard, because feeding people is very important to her, kind of her love language or how she feels valued. I'm slowly trying to get her to eat more meat, eventually get her to keto or something. She loves her rice and pasta and potatoes and sides and alcohol and veggies. If I can get her to cut back on everything but the veggies, maybe there is hope for her, but it won't happen overnight, regardless of what I am able to accomplish for myself.

I'll update again when I've got the CAC score, but my journey is far from over. I won't be satisfied until I get flip that cholesterol pattern B to a pattern A. That is my next mountain to climb, and the only way I believe I can get there is to loose the weight, and that means fighting harder against the sugar demons.

Wish me well on this leg of my journey.

An update to this. I bought a small jar of Adam's peanut butter. I choose it because it was the only smooth peanut butter (I know peanuts don't actually break down well, so no point in buying chunky) that didn't also have palm oil or sugars.

It was several days before I even got around to opening it, mixing it up (natural peanut butter separates naturally, so need to mix the peanut oil back in to make it so that you're not getting a spoon of oil or a spoon of very dense peanut paste), and I saw that I just wasn't really drawn to it.

I also bought a small jar of raw honey. When I would raid the pantry, I would also tend to have a little honey to appease the sugar demons. Honey contains fructose, so this is really contrary to what I should be doing, but hey - keep the demons at bay.

I ended up (had more or less planned this) mixing some of the honey into the jar of peanut butter. After doing this, it became a million times harder to stop eating it. Instead of maybe a couple spoons worth, it was 5-6 spoons, and then maybe a couple more. I think the jar is half gone now.

This is really showing me a) the power of the sugar addiction, and b) the reality that this is a horrible plan. While this may be preferable to shoving a couple chocolate raised glazed dual-filled donuts in my face (my other go-to to appease the sugar demons), it is just not what I want to do. So, yes, I will finish this jar, as slowly as I can manage, and then, not again.

I'm going to make another note that will really spell out WHY I'm not willing to appease the sugar demons, but that should hopefully close the loop on peanut butter.

This is great information. I've been on an extremely low oxalate diet for over a year, and didn't have many symptoms that I would consider oxalate related. I doubt PB will actually become part of my day-to-day diet, but will definitely be looking out for oxalate symptoms.

I don't waste the time or energy on keeping up with orange man drama, things happening overseas, or even things happening outside my home. Some might think this is ignorant of me, but ignorance is bliss, and I could sure use a little bliss right now.

GN and eat a damn ribeye. Just fucking do it.

Saw my drug dealer today; he agreed to put the order in for my CAC score. Was able to resist all his attempts to medicate me while I am healing.

Satellite (running as a PWA in Kiwi) because I don't share my nsec and I like the simpler interface.

Any time something is advertised as "safe and effective", I assume it is neither.

If I had my choice, I would probably stop using a phone altogether. Just use a service like google voice (preferably NOT google anything), so there is a number I can give when services demand it. Exist purely on email, and only check it when I feel like it.

Unfortunately, wife would leave me over this. I value her and her (misplaced) needs for security/stability.

Also, no 2fa that "requires" a phone or similar device.

Unpopular take: all "bullying" isn't bad.

It helps to establish and reinforce a social order. It teaches children that there will always be someone bigger and badder than you that wants what you have more than you do.

Overcoming bullying builds self esteem. This is the real world analog of facing a video game "boss", maybe losing a few times, and eventually learning how to beat them.

It helps to put a stop to a sense of entitlement, that the world owes you something. Instead, you learn that you only have what you're willing to fight for, and you'll choose better opsec to prevent fighting, because fighting sucks.

I hope my kids (and most kids) get punched in the face at least once, even if it is only emotionally. Obviously there should be some guardrails around this, and that is where parenting steps in. But a punch to the face from your peers will be far more effective than any punishment a parent can give.

Considering Aikido. Mostly because my neighbors, whom I like, have been teaching it for over 25 years. I think I would personally prefer Tai Chi, but I'm not sure I'm physically ready for it yet.