Also considering adding peanut butter intentionally back into my diet.

Why the fuck would I do that? Aren't I supposed to be #carnivore?

Well, piss off. I've varied how strictly I've adhered to the cult of carnivore from the beginning. Sure, I go days and weeks without eating any plants, but I still occasionally eat things that are not non-plan.

I actually started carnivore as just low-carb, and would snack on peanuts. I found that was a bad idea, as I could easily "snack" a whole jar of peanuts in a day. So I dropped them.

But I would occasionally get a late night craving for something, and a couple spoons of peanut butter was a better option than many others I tried.

Here's what I know. I'm definitely not allergic to peanuts. PB has been a satisfying late night option. I can get it with no added ingredients, just peanuts, pretty easily. Peanuts have protein and fat. They have a low glycemic index. A couple spoonfuls of PB isn't that much in carbs. Peanuts are not animals, and our ancestors probably didn't eat them. Carnivorous animals do not eat them. Whole peanuts do not completely digest in our stomach/intestines. I don't have kin issues or oxalate issues I'm concerned about triggering. Smooth PB generally has palm oil added, and I'm not cool with that. Peanuts can inhibit iron and zinc absorption, but I don't plan to eat them when eating other things, just late at night.

So I'll probably do it. Then I may stop. Or I won't. PB may actually help when I'm getting stricter in other areas (likely stopping pork, cured meats, dairy (except butter), spiced/sauced/breaded meats when offered to me, quitting nicotine, etc).

But if anyone has any concerns about peanuts or peanut butter they feel I should be aware of, I'm listening.

Got some more tests back. The good news is my fasting insulin is 5, which is pretty much optimal. To me, this means I'm winning the war. My CoQ10 level was 1.5, which is high normal. Another good sign that damage done by taking the statins for a few years may not be that bad. No need to take more CoQ10 supplements, which I had tried briefly to see if they would help my blood pressure.

Triglycerides were lower, back solidly in the reference range, but here's where it starts going south. Total cholesterol dropped a little, still high. HDL dropped, back down to low 30s. TG to HDL ratio is still over 4. But LDL particle size analysis (first time ever tested) was all in the red. The big reveal? LDL pattern B confirmed. That actually explains the higher TG, low HDL, high LDL issues I've had pretty much my whole life.

What does this mean? The healing is far from over. I really want my CAC score, to see how much damage has been done. Statins are DEFINITELY not the answer. But the real action item is I need to drop more weight. At 265 (already over 50 lbs less than my top weight recorded), BMI is still about 36. I want it to be 26. That means getting down to 190ish. So, time to take everything a lot more seriously and be more strict with diet. I'd been trying to take it easy, because I wanted to give my skin time to shrink a bit on its own, and to not alarm or upset my wife. She says she prefers me with some bulk (probably so she feels better about her own weight issues, as well as trust issues).

I broke the news to her that I needed to drop to 190 to fix my cholesterol (which she was far more concerned about than I was) and get my heart health on track. She wasn't thrilled, but she didn't threaten divorce either.

I know (absolute conviction) that I can do it. The only question is how fast, and how many people I will piss off in the process. (Mostly the wife). But that's where I'm at.

I see my idiot wanna-be doctor (not an MD) who will continue to push pills at me on Wednesday. He won't even understand the results of the tests I had him order for me. Hopefully I can get him to order the CAC score, armed with the basics of pattern B LDL. Otherwise, I'll have to find someone that will order the test. Then, drop another 75 lbs. I want to do that over the next year. Then, re-test everything and see where I'm at.

I also have to quit smoking again. Planned to anyway, but it has to happen. I've done it before, I can do it again.

This isn't even a setback, just part of my healing path. Definitely a re-focusing, though. My "why" might be narrowing a bit, at least for a while.

Also considering being interviewed on a podcast. Not sure I want that, but considering it.

#carnivore #health

There were a couple hugely traumatic events that no child should have to experience, but apart from those, yes, I wish my children could experience my childhood. Alas, the present state of technology did not make it so, and I was unwilling and unable to give them the Luddite existence I was lucky to have.

What would Viktor Frankl think of today's surveillance state and global autocracy?

Vegans are regarded. I don't hate them, just like I don't hate Downs syndrome people, but I look at their pathetic attempts to be righteous in much the same way. Pity.

At least a vegan can just change their mind and ways and become a healthy human again, in relatively short order. Many others with what are commonly held to be lifelong diseases and syndromes can too. Pity about Downs though, that can be a tough one.

Fasting glucose came back at 82, solidly in my goal range. I think it was 95 about 8 months ago.

Arrangements must be made. I get eggs occasionally from my neighbor that has some backyard chickens. But no, I don't eat a lot of eggs. And chicken even more rarely. And I would say I am suburban at present, but those in urban settings might have to make more distant arrangements.

"Smart" people make "dumb" decisions and "dumb" people make "smart" decisions all the time, but the "smarter" ones tend to be better equipped to deal with the consequences and more likely to choose differently in the future, when presented with a similar choice.

It's not easy to grow cows in anything other than a rural environment, so arrangements must be made.

I don't know that this has been proven wrong. They may not be the *best* store of value, but they still check a lot of boxes...

A box of rocks? The jokes write themselves. All kidding aside, I used to be convinced that semi-precious gemstones were a great store of value.

Well, if it hit something, it probably wouldn't travel forever?

Meat is freedom tech.

I rode my motorcycle today. As far up Mt St. Helens as the roads allow. With a couple hundred other motorcyclists.

Weather was cool, a little moisture in the air, but sun breaks too.

Won't be the last time I make that trek, as it is practically in my backyard.

On a fast, going to get some bloods taken and want to be super-clear. No food for over 24 hours now, maybe 26 or so. Nothing but black coffee and water since, and I had my last coffee a few hours ago, now nothing but water until bloods. Hope they can do them tomorrow, but if it doesn't happen until Tuesday, that's fine too. Not even really hungry now.

I have a ribeye ready to go for after my bloods. And another one after that, if I want it.

Try this on - trinity is three realms or dimensions of being; heavenly god is pure energy, realm of heavens, undiscernable by man. Beyond the physical universe we can observe. Jesus (in christian myths) represents the physical realm, the physical observable universe of matter, time and space. The "holy spirit" is the interface or intersection between the two, think field energy. It is also boundary region between the two realms, neither fully energy or matter.

Although triune brain theory is interesting too, but probably itself a product of natural thinking in threes, three-dimensional, and many more concepts with two poles and a boundary region between them. Good and evil are often seen this way, with some gray area between. I think they are just as artificial as any triune or trinity, just a product of man's conceptualization of his own reality.

What if I were to say that the story of Noah (and most if not all great flood stories) are really based on oral knowledge that represented a creation story; not of Earth's creation or human creation, but the creation of the universe? The characters, even the animals, represent particles, energy/light/matter transfer, quantum field theory, etc - but the versions we have now are so poorly reflective of the original knowledge after a multi-millenia telephone game that they are unrecognizable.

Yes, knowledge was encoded in allegory and myth, so as to be able to survive generations of oral translation. What remains is a strong indication that ancient humans had far more scientific knowledge than we currently do; a better understanding of physics and cosmology.

While this may indicate some kind of creator or god, it doesn't require one, just they forces needed to create our universe.

Today I was a shadowy super-coder. GN

Does the wolf care what the sheep thinks of him?

If (insert whatever the current nonsense is) kills bitcoin, then it wasn't worth living. This goes for ETFs, stableshit, even block size and op codes. Definitely includes nudes, rfts, epsilons, prescriptions, whatever. I believe it is much stronger thanks to these attacks, so keep 'em coming. Hodl.