Nostr Web Client

tf 1y ago

How a live auction could be implemented on nostr

An event kind defining the auction including

* description

* end time

* pubkey of a service that will timestamp bids

An event kind defining a bid including

* the auction event ID 👆

* the amount

The bid time stamping could be done by a DVM, a relay, or even a client app

Paying for the time stamping could be by bidders or the seller. Maybe the bidders to avoid griefing

Latency may be higher than eBay but the fees much lower

It would be fun to do an auction in SATS 😄

Replying to 2b638c34...

Hey, Nostr…

This is an #introductions post, but it’s not my first npub.

I’ve become quite close with many of you over the course of 2023. I consider a number of you to be real friends.

But I haven’t found the courage to open up some of the personal struggles I’m facing. Partly out of shame, partly out of the fear of validating my failings by putting them in writing.

But what I do know is the love and support and kindness that exists among this crew, and I’m feeling like I could really stand to lean on that energy a bit right now. I’m hopeful that, even through this anon account, there’s room for friendship, freely given.

I’ve struggled with a range of compulsive/risky/addictive behaviors for a long time, but it’s gotten harder lately. It’s the devil I’ve danced with since my teenage years, and it’s been especially difficult lately to align my active behavior with my heart, intuition, and personal goals.

I believe I “trained” my neural pathways to lean on various dopamine/reward pathways in times of stress during my adolescent development - or, to be honest, from a much younger age - and these mental habits have become deeply ingrained.

It’s not one specific “addiction” the way that people often struggle with, but my tendency to fall into patterns of substance abuse and other ego-inflating activities goes through cycles, which I’m just beginning to understand come from very deep, old parts of myself, and it feels like things have been escalating farther outside of a level of baseline acceptability lately.

I can point to various moments of trauma or conditioning that led me to try to self-soothe in these ways, and I’ve developed compassion for the parts of myself that are “trying to help” even in self-destructive ways.

But I’ve had a harder time with everything lately than I have in a long time. I don’t feel able to share this with my partner, but I am recognizing that it may be too much to handle on my own. Because I’ve tried for years. Self-imposed rules aren’t enough, because they don’t heal the broken parts. And I’m afraid that I’m risking the things I hold most dear, including my loved ones and my own self-worth and self-respect, if I don’t find a way through this.

I know some of you have faced things like addiction, trauma, loss, and personal failures. And I’ve seen the beautiful people that you are. I know and recognize that beauty in myself too, but I’m continually undermining my own happiness and fulfillment. I’m learning to pray again, to turn inward and connect with myself. But I’m also deeply stuck enough that I keep ending up in those patterns that hurt my heart and betray my soul.

I don’t even know if anyone will see this. If the default relays on this client have wide reach. If my VPN is effective or if I’ll dox my identity here.

But man… I sure could use a few kind words, advice, or encouragement from others who have been in a similar place before. If you’ve read this far, I already deeply appreciate you. You’re probably one of the friends I’ve made this last year 🫂

tf 1y ago

I think you're going down the right path in relying on others and being gentle with yourself, keep going.

AA saved the life of someone very dear to me. Like many addicts they are addicted to multiple things not only substances... shopping, working. I went to Al-Anon meetings for friends/family/partners of addicts, they were useful for understanding & healing myself as much as helping to understand addiction.

Love.

Replying to

jack

True? nostr:note179kky45lfxhz90cxltp0jtqm75nsd2af02wh9jmz46drmskywghshts74g

tf 1y ago

Who knows without random sampling and accounting for variance

But over a year in and the promised transparency over shadow banning is still a work in progress?

Yet they had time and resources to build an AI and many other features

Priorities

"Gentile News Network" and Andrew Torba are anti-Semites

But I'll defend their right to speak their inane views no matter how much they make me puke 😄

Replying to

Annie☕

Hello Nostr. I'm updating my Listr and would like to add more people to my lists. I'm making working on a coffee, meme, music and art list. Please recommend npubs to add.

FYI

I already have nostr:npub1jk9h2jsa8hjmtm9qlcca942473gnyhuynz5rmgve0dlu6hpeazxqc3lqz7 on the meme list.

Thanks ☕💋

tf 1y ago

Badly needs updating but here's my art pleb list 😄

https://listr.lol/npub1dq0vnsph9wpmp9pcsc6qj2l5h7xsjyxyxt5tsl986u3v4lncknnsf8yffq/30000/naddr1qq4xc6tnw3ez6dt98qcnycehxyknxvnrvykngdmrvskkzenxvckkgwfcxejnjvnr89nrxespzemhxue69uhhyetvv9ujumn0wd68ytnzv9hxgq3qdq0vnsph9wpmp9pcsc6qj2l5h7xsjyxyxt5tsl986u3v4lncknnsxpqqqp6nqz3evms