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TheDefiantOne
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Some get handed a path, some make one, but me? I messed up over and over again until I hit rock bottom. However, It's quite liberating. Where else can I go?

How do you even start to deal with being forgotten by the man who raised you?

Dementia is a cruelty to everyone who has to deal with it. From the person who has it, to the family members who take care of them, it breaks you.

I've dealt with death all my life, perks of being a drug addicted child. You lose a lot early on, and learn to deal with it. But this? I don't know how to cope with being forgotten by the man who taught me to ride a bike. I'm no longer his firstborn grandson, I'm just the man who takes care of him in his home. I don't know how to process being treated like a stranger by the man who gave me my most important early lessons. He's the one who inspired me to save my first thousand dollars and buy apple stock, but now he doesn't even remember that. I don't know how to help him when he asks for family members long deceased, or for friends I never knew he had. I don't know what to do anymore. I just go to work, and go home to take care of him. I don't even want to do my Twitter event or engage on social media anymore

I just want my grandfather back.

Life will use pain to teach you, but what is the lesson here?

Ig that's what I get to understand this year.

I'm not sure how I'll grow from this, or how to process it, but I know it isn't the end. In some way, ill come out better on the otherside.

I have so much misplaced anger I don't know what to do with. I can't change anything or make it better. I just have to patient, and learn to enjoy the few lucid moments he has. That's all I know how to do right now..

Doing the same to my coworkers

I convinced 2 of them to download WoS and buy $50 worth of sats

Now I just have to convince them to use Nostr 🫡

Apparently this is not for android users

Sad

Yall ever show up to work and realise you are severely overpayed from a fiat perspective

But severely underpaid, because money will never be worth time

Context: I'm paid 25 an hour to sit under a canopy and cut up trash on shop days

Showed up to work, just to sit under a canopy and cut trash for 25 an hour

The vibes maybe gloomy, but at least the day is easy

Thank you for the zap🥹🫣

I only want to do my part in creating a future where people are taught to be themselves

And sovereign individuals run the world

That's the rabbit hole I'm going down rn

How can I use whats been uncovered to finish what wasn't? For my end goal?

Can all of it come together?

So many questions

And I'll have to find the answers🫡

My internal dialog is a mix of "what the fuck is wrong with everyone, or is it me?", ridiculous situations that'll never happen, and "everything I own" with Vanessa Hudgens from bandslam on repeat

Sometimes "janies got a gun" by Aerosmith plays

Every now and then I'll get "run to the hills" by Iron maiden

I imagine a future with cities that fully utilize vertical space, self sustaining buildings, and educational facilities focused on teaching developmental psychology and philosophy to students, so they are given the tools to create the person they wish to become, instead of being told who they need to be

Okay but like look at the shiny object:

(Tldr: guy does whatever gpt4 tells him to make money)

https://twitter.com/jacksonfall/status/1636107218859745286?t=XGaB-_xyBPjJr1w0OW_ZEg&s=19

I found this video on how to make bread super interesting, imma try the recipe and I'll lyk how it goes🫡

Says it can last up to a year without being in a fridge, so I'll be testing that as well

https://youtu.be/hC_TbCnvpvI

Gm Sovereign Individuals

Rise and Reign

Back to the fiat mines today, but Thursday I can stack some more sats

And my Twitter event is going well, I'm thinking about making a Nostr version of it where yall can win sats for solving riddles, treasure hunts, and other things like that

Would yall be interested?

I mean if everyone's doing it:

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