Their behavior today isn't quite as bad but I will never forgive these screenshots from the other night

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Someone suggested it's just another user with a stenography keyboard

I keep hoping for that, but with her

I don't think it is, I think it's a bot

I'm sure it's legal, but their community should be ostracized for THIS, not for being gambling addicts

They are talking to the chat bot that makes voice clips in Digit's voice in the wallstreetbets discord https://discord.gg/wallstreetbets

They make it act sexual all the time. They say she faked her death about a year ago, but they give no proof she didn't actually kill herself, and she hasn't come back in all that time.

How am I the only one that cares?

There's been a global airborne pandemic for almost 5 years now, TF you doin

(Making it 8 or 10 digits would also make it exponentially harder to crack)

6 digits spaced apart throughout the key would work better - first 6 hex digits means if your vanity key had the mleku in the beginning, any impersonator generating npub1mleku would get your mleku AND your colors

My ban from the wallstreetbets discord channel was just removed. Please God can someone there have proof she's safe

Recap of what's going on in my life to help make my recent posts less confusing -

Short version:

* I love a woman called digit who I only knew on the internet, it seems she's either killed herself or faked her death for the wallstreetbets chat room we met in

* I've been gangstalked for years by people who started out on reddit and they constantly attack me for "cyberstalking" her and not caring about age of consent bullshit

* These attacks are incredibly popular, beloved by the people, so my friends have all abandoned me and nobody cares or helps me find out if Digit is safe (to be clear, I'm 27 and she's mid 30s)

* I might be chemically lobotomized just for trying to find out if she is safe

* It might help if I can find people who don't see trying to find out if a loved one faked their death or not as evil "cyberstalking," who don't think age-of-consent opposers deserve to die, who care enough to do anything anyone has the power to do to help me find out if she's safe

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Longer version:

* I've been gangstalked for years by people who started out on reddit - search online for "DarqWolff" (former reddit username) or "DarqWolff rdrama.net" (username + site my fans hang out on)

* All my closest bonds have been based on worrying about the safety of women I met online, starting with my first girlfriend being a suicidal girl in a support group when I was a teenager, creating a snowball effect where I'm too scared to be distracted by anything except more fear and new women can't override my fake (according to Digit - wondering if I can prove her wrong) sense of loyalty to scare me more than past women without much worse horror stories

* This lead me to discover the worst horror story in the English language, the story of a woman in a wallstreetbets chat room calling herself Digit who couldn't get her PhD because she couldn't get past someone she loved dying while she was working on it, so she hated herself ever since and wasted her time with abusive people online, all while being the most amazing woman, capable of saving the world but instead suffering alone like this - and she gave me a chance and reached out to me when I was suicidal and she saved my life, and then she survived cancer but became suicidal herself, and her abusive friends lied to her about me and coordinated with my gangstalkers from reddit to character assassinate me and it compounded with me being worthless and she couldn't trust me or anyone anymore

* She deleted her reddit and discord accounts and disappeared about a year ago

* Everything I've done in life since getting to know her has been focused on her, nothing tops the significance of what happened with her. Everything I do is trying to impress her if she is safe, trying to find out if she is, preparing to avenge her and our sabotaged friendship if she isn't

* I usually talk about her all the time, but when I made this npub I tried to be anonymous and separate my work going after the military industrial complex (to save her world) from my work trying to find out if she's actually here (in the world I'm doing it for)

* I can't shut up about her anymore - 2 nights ago someone sent me screenshots of someone on discord claiming to be her brother saying she killed herself. There is no proof

* A mutual internet contact who knows her real life contact information once wrote her a letter for me, and he says she faked her death for the chat room people, but he offers no proof either

* After years of me worrying about Internet women, and the past 2 years of me begging everyone for help getting past wallstreetbets censorship to let her know her friends there have deceived her about me, my friends have pretty much all abandoned me and the ones left are unable to help me anyway and I'm not sure if even they can fully be trusted

* I'm trying everything I can think of - I'll try to make her story go viral so the wallstreetbets chat is flooded with people asking about her, I made an article about her on the wiki in case maybe she sees it somehow, I keep asking anyone who might have information

* I don't have many leads for finding out if she's safe - I have a possible address for a guy she dated online, he's in a state I have an arrest warrant in and one of my only ideas is to go fight him and get arrested and then proceed from there continuing trying to find ways to cause problems for people who hurt her and hope it leads to me finding out if she's safe eventually

* All of this fear and abuse has left mercy in my heart for only a tiny handful of exceptions in the human race, making it harder to get any help

I see you shop at the quality linguistics post store

How today's American authoritarians react to different examples of expressing disagreement with arbitrary age discrimination (saving most important ones for last)

* If you say "retirement age should at least be based on statistics instead of cutting it off at an arbitrary age based on your feefees," the authoritarians say "no."

* If you say "you should at least base the age I can get a driver's license on statistics instead of cutting it off at an arbitrary age based on your feefees," the authoritarians say "no."

* If you say "you should at least decide who's old enough for a driver's license on a case-by-case basis instead of setting a cutoff age at an arbitrary number selected by your feefees," the authoritarians say "no."

* If you say "you should at least let everyone vote instead of setting an arbitrary voting age based on your feefees," the authoritarians say "no."

* If you say "you should at least set the voting cutoff age based on statistics instead of your arbitrary feelings," the authoritarians say "no."

* If you say "you should at least set the cutoff age for drinking alcohol and using cannabis based on statistics instead of your arbitrary feelings," the authoritarians say "sure, let's at least try to do that."

* If you say "you should at least decide if I can be charged as a runaway on a case-by-case basis instead of setting an arbitrary cutoff age based on your feefees," the authoritarians say "no."

* If you say "you should at least make exceptions in runaway cases for some people below the arbitrary cutoff age based on your feefees," the authoritarians say "no."

* If you say "you should at least set another, lower arbitrary cutoff age based on your feefees where you'll consider making exceptions for people who are above that age, but below the arbitrarily-set cutoff age for potential charges," the authoritarians say "only in some states."

* If you say "age-based workforce regulations should ban adults from exploiting kids instead of banning kids from making money," the authoritarians say "wait, you wanted to stop kids from getting exploited? What the fuck?"

* If you say "you should at least decide if I'm old enough to have sex on a case-by-case basis instead of setting an arbitrary cutoff age based on your feefees," the authoritarians foam at the mouth and fucking collapse society with fossil fuel so they can kill you and get away with it even though it also means they and their children will die.

* If you say "you should at least set the ages people can have sex at based on some rational justification instead of picking arbitrary numbers based on your feefees," the authoritarians fucking kill you as soon as they can get away with it, and just to make sure they will be able to get away with it, they fucking collapse society with fossil fuel, even though it also means they and their children will die.

* If you say "the laws on age cutoffs are fine as they are and I am not only willing but downright excited to follow them to the letter," the authoritarians say "you were supposed to follow the spirit of the law, not the letter - when we said you're not allowed to have sex with anyone below a certain age, we also meant you have to say no if you're asked if they're attractive," then they ask "so would you still be attracted to the woman you love if she was age of consent minus one?" If you say yes, then they fucking kill as soon as they can get away with it, and to make sure they will be able to get away with it, they fucking collapse society with fossil fuel, even though it also means they and their children will die.

Using "could" would help, or not saying "your location" - the distinction I'm seeing is important for some people, for example any leet haxxor who thinks their burner phone doesn't know who they are because they use VoIP over WiFi or something (cell phone can still be tracked by cell towers without cell service)

To be clear, I do not think digit would be ok with knowing I died or got chemically lobotomized over this. If she found out that happened, I'm sure she'd regret letting it happen. But deep down, she might need to let it happen in order to find out it can, because she's so insecure she can't admit it's possible in order to prevent it.

She also said she couldn't finish her PhD because someone she loved died while she was in post grad. I heard from others that it was a boyfriend who killed himself. She had this anger at society and hated herself but she loved humans and didn't seem to openly blame anyone for what happened. Maybe she saw I was born to be angry at society and she wanted to unleash a dark version of me on the world as her vengeance for the person she lost. If that's the case, I just hope she did it in a limited capacity by faking her death, instead of permanently by killing herself.

Another few:

* People are not ready to stop thinking bioweapons are comfy before bird flu is added on top of COVID

* Grants Pass v. Johnson is yet another affirmation that society is now at the level of "it's fine to use biological warfare on dissidents"

* Me trying to find out if someone I love is safe is probably enough dissidence to have me killed with COVID or another lab-leaked virus in some jail cell without anyone hearing about it or caring

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These issues are both fucked up:

* If digit is dead, she gets no justice, the society that steamrolled her soul gets away with it and I end up dead or chemically lobotomized trying to avenge her

* If digit is alive, I still might get chemically lobotomized just for trying to find out

Who are these people, really? Let's see:

* If she is alive, Digit herself might need me dead or chemically lobotomized just to prove I'm willing to go that far, she might not be willing to accept that I can't handle losing her without seeing absolute proof

* All my former friends have implied that if I can't willingly live in peace without knowing if digit is safe, they're ok with me being chemically lobotomized to stop me from dying a hero's death

* None of my former friends who could offer me some protection will offer me any protection

* My remaining friends, who believe I deserve to live and be free to find out if someone I love is safe and avenge them if need be, are only people who have no ability to protect me. For example, none of them have a car and enough time to drive me somewhere I need to go in a state where I have an arrest warrant so I don't need to drive myself at risk of being pulled over and IDed - even in the state they live in.

* Any cop or judge will probably go along with killing me or chemically lobotomizing me if his peers think it's right

* I can't foresee any likelihood that any cop or judge would punish any of his peers for killing me or chemically lobotomizing me

* Almost all cops and judges think killing or chemically lobotomizing me is right if it's difficult to use imprisonment to deal with me

* Many cops and some judges think killing me would be right because I don't support judicial prejudice applied on a blanket basis to groups defined by arbitrary emotions (this upsets authoritarians regarding their precious age of consent laws)

* Many cops think if I can't willingly live without knowing Digit is safe, me dying or being chemically lobotomized is better than me getting help staying up to date on her safety

I am toast.

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No, I was disputing what you put in your post after it popped up in a feed on primal or iris. Nothing to do with that webpage

My articles have always just used the "people" category, e.g. Louis Rossmann https://wikifreedia.xyz/louis-anthony-rossmann/npub1wamvxt2tr50ghu4fdw47ksadnt0p277nv0vfhplmv0n0z3243zyq26u3l2

I initially used the "living people" category for digit to express my hope that she is alive, and it was painful to change it back just based on not agreeing with the new category, while also not knowing if she is alive. I think if I knowingly outlived her while her category was "living people" I would never be able to handle updating it and would just quit this npub.

A NIP-54 editor added "living people" as a category to the nostr wiki while I was first trying to verify the screenshots about Digit killing herself, which was about to lead me to make an article for Digit. Very odd serendipity, like when laeserin posted about ngit right when I was about to make articles about git for the first time.

I really disagree with it though. They should not be separate categories. Would you want a third category for "people who may have faked their deaths" or another for "people rumored to exist" since we're not always sure who is and isn't living?

More importantly, would you want to change the category for an article about your loved one after they die?

I have defaulted back to the "people" category because I can't imagine how painful it would be to approve a merge request where the only change is taking her out of "living people" based on knowing she died. I don't want to have her in a third category for "people rumored to have faked their deaths" either. There are ways in which living and non-living people should be handled differently, and contexts in which they should be distinguished as categories, but not here.

This new editor that created this new entry was also spamming non-article entries with Wikipedia links. I'm uneasy about this person but I do like how they use the phrase "legacy Wikipedia."