interesting. i was wondering if fedi invoices are reusable, and i conclude they are. my reasoning is that nick says 14 hrs ago that someone paid him but i used same invoice to pay nick 100 fedi testnet sats less than 1 hr ago.

thank you for thanking me! and for not misunderstanding ... and also for the sats if those came from you!

not sure if that video was the most relevant or easily understandable. if i come across one that's more relevant and you don't mind, i can try to remember to send it along.

I think it's called the prayer of st francis of assisi that goes something like "grant me the ability to change those things i can, to endure those things i cant, and the wisdom to know the difference between the two."

if you're a survivor, you'll notice what works, e.g., how to cheer yourself up and not let stuff you can't control get you down, but as others have written, some stuff just has to be endured.

i don't know about you, but i want to strong enough not to be defeated by my own sadness, for my own sake and also so i can continue to be a support for those who rely on me, but i also dont want to become numb, cold, or uncaring.

so i would feel good about yourself if you're sensitive enough to care but have the practical survivor instinct that keeps you from caring so much it becomes dangerous. it may be a little like distance (maai in japanese) in martial arts: there's sort of a natural safe or comfortable distance: too close and you cant move fast enough to defend yourself; too far and you cant engage without overextending.

for me it is not pain but meaningless pain that is hardest to bear. if someone has hurt me (not that they necessarily have deliberately hurt me) but i can do a good thing for them and for myself by enduring it (and i have it in me to bear it!), then sometimes i think to myself "i dont care how bad it hurts, let the pain come if it's going to".

i mean, of course i am not deliberately trying to make things more painful than they are; rather, the idea is that i want to remove the grip that pain has on me and not let it manipulate me (at least to the extent that i am brave enough to pull this off!).

there's a fourway thing that the buddha said that goes sthg like:

"just because a thing is painful does not mean it is unwholesome;

just because a thing is painful does not mean it is wholesome;

just because a thing is pleasant does not mean it is wholesome;

just because a thing is pleasant does not mean it is unwholesome,"

even though we cant always control whether we are happy or sad now, it is a mistake to feel helpless, because whether we will be happy or sad in the future depends on what we do now.

it may not be easy to see how this happens, but even just believing that it happens for a reason and trying to figure out how it all works is itself a wholesome and healthy action that will be a cause of future wisdom and happiness.

lately i've been listening to this monk. i apologize in advance if you dont share my interest in religious-sounding things, as i know anything that sounds even faintly religious can trigger some people. i try not to be biased either for or against but just try to understand and use what's helpful.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=l01syReXGis

Amethyst questions:

If I originally set up Amethyst to login with pubkey only, and then I later want to login with pvtkey, is only way to do this by uninstalling/reinstalling Amethyst?

If yes, is it safe to assume no critical settings will be lost when uninstall/reinstall?

Oops. forgot his id. here it is:

npub1cwhvar5gxrt32f3ajjall406tgrathdnkwug8s3ha6ph7f43pp0qvwpptw

My Japanese small-business-owner friend Tsuyoshi is new to nostr and bitcoin. Please welcome him!

(I've got him set up on bitcoin, lightning, and nostr; next step is to see if we can get him using LNbits or BTCpayserver for his business. )

日本語が分かる人は日本語で声を掛けてください！

Yes, can't be censored, deplatformed, cancelled, etc.

Oops. I think that should be _McCullough_ (was missing a "u").

Dr Peter McCullogh, citing solid research as is his way, recommends sniffing a dash of 50:50 hydrogen peroxide:water up the nose, then lean head back and let it coat upper sinuses, for those times when you feel like you're coming down with a touch of covid.

also 4 gb here. re mempool, had thought it might be good idea to increase maxmempool in bitcoin config but that made things way worse (even when increase zram), requiring daily reboots of my raspiblitz to get load on CPUs back down to normal. set naxmempool back to 300 and things are much better, though still need to reboot every few days.

hey rico. 9 secs from when i hit send via zeus from my node.

only 4 GB physical ram. wish i had known i needed 8 GB to do anything interesting. and i guess trend lately is toward old notebook computer and away from raspberry pi entirely...

my first image attachment on nostr.

my first hashtag ever.

was never on twitter; was wtg for decentralized version.

thank you nostr devs!

#zapan

i tried that for awhile. cpu load was getting way up there, lightning crashing, ssh responsiveness slowing to crawl, requiring daily reboot of node. increasing zram didnt help. searched web, found sthg suggesting mempool > 300 could br cause. put back to 300 and problem has largely gone away.

yes, i'm feeling reckless. but how to DM you?

tell me more! where can i get this LNBits extension of which you speak?

thanks for your zap!

(attempts to zap you from zap wallet and zeus wallet produced error, but wallet of satoshi succeeded.)

thanks, nick. got your zap. hopefully you got mine from earlier.

think i got it now (sadly using WoS however)

sorry about that. was a bech32 encoded onion address. should work (or so i thought). guess i need to throw in the towel and use WoS. if you want to try again in 2 mins, will hopefully work this time 🤙