On weekend i feel myself had a great appetite (compared to the last few week) and ate a bit too much. And when I went to bed I didn’t feel that relaxing, like part of my stomach was still working. And today although not that hard but I find myself quite control in good and it’s only 5pm and I have a sense of hunger but no desire for food. That feels cool.😅🤣
The way of focusing is to feel your felt sense but don’t go into it. Like you clear a space in your mind, and you try to feel what’s been bugging you, you can feel that, but you are not part of it, you just observe it from outside. And the you try to resonate or ask about that feeling and try to find a handle or so called solution to it.
And in The way of effortless mindfulness, the way to keep calm and chill in every situation of your life is to find the awake awareness in your body. Through a lot of Glimpse practice in the book, I feel I can have a sense about this awareness. It’s different from attention. It’s like you are more attached with the environment but in a effortless way. I need to admit I’ve tried meditation for several time before but I always find it struggled to keep focusing like that deliberate attention. I didn’t feel that relax or calm after that and can’t keep it for a long time. But when I try to awake awareness and then focusing on what I need to do, I feel quite easy.
I may come back to this book later. Need to reread.
Focusing.
The way of effortless mindfulness.
#whatNikkiRead
I still care too much about the outside world”what he will think of me””do I look perfect”
No it ain’t right. Shift to”how do I feel when being with him “”do I feel the connection?”
Spend some time to send books to my kindle😎
feel safe and wealthy now☺️😌 
People always say children could pick up a language quickly than an adult. I feel that because children know little about the world and when he learns language, he basically intuitively link that thing/ thought with the language, while an adult is almost doing the translating job. So when you already shape your value using a specific kind of language, it could be hard for you to learn and use another language just as the initial one, it may can but takes a lot more time.
Like the same time last year, just released from the lockdown and moved to this area. It has been a lot time I took a walk in the evening like this, I remembered when I first moved here, I walked a lot. And the feeling that vide just hit me.
It has been a year!
I can remember I watch staged during lockdown period but why don’t I watch Good Omens!
For the recent season2 released I picked up this series and just finished season1 and I feel both hilarious and touched! What a genius series!
Aziraphale and Crowley🥹angle and demon, but not the opposite side.
Exiled from heaven and hell, finding the Antichrist.
Love the whole storied and all the actors🥹will save season2 to next weekend.
#whatNikkiwatch 
Be gentle to yourself treat yourself like a child.
We can be harsh to ourselves. And we keep looking the outside judgements. But except from ourselves, who can better know ourselves? Who can bring the most comforting to ourselves.
So in the process of growing up, we are shifting the inside to outside, which causes all the trouble and doubt and unsafety in us, try to bring the self back, that whole self.
Accidentally lu falling asleep after lunch.🥺🥺🥺feel so energetic and satisfied
When you have a though or feeling, but said since your mother language is Chinese you can’t express it in English. So for a baby when he can’t talk he can’t express himself, do those thoughts exist.
I’ve watched a lot of movies a lot of series maybe a lot of books but now if you ask me to recommend some of them, I could not describe what they are about or why they are good how good they are.
Sometimes I feel if it resonates with you then it’s good you have no need to describe what exactly the effect is. But now I feel maybe by expressing and writing those effects you can better know yourself. May find sometime to reflect on what I have watched and how they are good about.
I have a feeling that unless you have been living in a specific language environment or you can’t truly express yourself in that language.
Yes you can read in that language but it’s hard to fully express yourself or talk in that language.
I’m the self that is receiving, made of, and giving the unconditional love that arises naturally 🫂
You need to do nothing but receive love and safety🫂
Spend some time reading the way to effortless mindfulness today, try to practice some glimpses. Seems I can get something seems I do can feel my awareness. Joy from my heart on the way home off work.
Will record to see the transformation in me(if have 
Your clothes your makeup, at the end they are just the extension of you. Not they make you, you make them.
birthday girl🐷🐷😎😎
What I want to do better:
No expectation on others
Self love for no reason 
