water dancing ⛲️

I’m now in an age believing there’s magic/ miracle in the world.

And I’m now also in an age wondering why 1+1 = 2.

I am both the problem and the solution.

I’m REALLY REALLY happy to learn that.

Work to create abundance not the opposite scarcity.

I have a lot of “regret not encountering sth earlier” moments: “if only I could read this book earlier “”why don’t I travel here earlier” “why I didn’t meet him/ her earlier “etc. It feels if I encountered sth/ sb earlier, my life could be totally different (better of course)

But now I rather accept the fact that everything just happens at the right timing. Only at this moment that thing happens could have an impact on me.

I suddenly realize that this reading habit(going through without really understanding/ absorbing the materials) is another example of me trying to fool myself(oh that unconscious!) I don’t know what’s good doing this, but I just do it.

I guess that’s also why I always hate exams or summary after reading/ learning. And I even find it a good reason: can’t we just enjoy the reading/ learning itself but not expecting any results. It’s no trouble if what I read is fiction or other funny materials but if it’s complicated subject or it is a handbook and requires me to build sth after reading, it would be a total mess. nostr:note16nxqav69p5tqup76lt2hz6f3zz4wlmll0gfken06m9hl5c66mn6sd942uw

When reading new materials online on a wiki page or something, I feel those words just slip through and I don’t really understand so I keep returning to what I have read. It’s quite annoying maybe I need to take notes at same time but since it’s online material so I can’t mark as I read a PDF in the reader. Maybe should find a extension or sth to help me take notes. Or maybe I should be more patient while reading and keep in mind that I can go on only making sure I understand what I’ve read.

I’m not typing very standard so not quick enough and now my long nails make it worse🥲but I really like long nails but they really cause trouble sometimes but I still wanna keep them🤯

Sometimes i would have a very nostalgic feeling when going to somewhere new(could be another city, or even a different area within the city). I’m sure I’ve never been there but it’s just feel so déjà-vu and I can feel my heart filled with lovingness. Maybe it’s just the whole vibe similar to some of my memories? Not sure, but i value those feelings so much, and even get back to the normal life every time recalling those feelings could give me so much happiness.

today’s walk🫶

Every time I read a blog post, there always contains a lot of hyperlinks in the article. And in order not to interrupt my reading, but the hyperlink seems worth checking, I would open it in a separate tabs. But by the end I finish the article, there will be many other tabs I open.

Yeah yeah there are so many fun stuffs waiting to be explored!

and walk🫶🍂 nostr:note1mxkhauhxecglret264gzgsg3w0r6f2vpnj3v7thrcdujrk0wga0sy0pvwr

dentist: eat/ drink after 2 hours

me: yeah yeah sure

⬇️also me (right after leaving the dentist’s): ice latte with oat milk😗

I kind of realize that the reason I often tend to think that the problems others face are easily solvable, but if I find myself in a similar situation, I struggle (or I always feel others have a easier life) is that when the subject is someone else, I would analyse the situation in a very rational way, and step1 step2 very clear. But if the subject is myself, I tend to involve too much emotion and get everything tangled together to complicate the situations.

Next time if found myself in struggle, could switch the mindset to a AI or a cold blood killer.

I’m now quite suspicious when people say: set your long term goal. For how can I know what I want in a long term. Like decisions I make today are totally based on what I’m thinking now and what I formation I have now. But I’m changing and everything’s changing. What I think i want in 5 year may not be what I truly want at that moment.

But I guess there could be one single loooong term goal: happiness. That could not be wrong even in a large time scale🧐

Every time the situation will be the leader him/herself is very chill and would like to discuss and know about the people. But the organizer(usually the mid level manager) over-arrange it😅

I feel I total get the curiosity of the leader(maybe)

Nowadays, I seem to have a more singular pursuit in terms of food. I just wanna single and bland food. But on the other hand, my nose seems to be more sensitive and craving more scents. I need perfumes or nasal inhalers.

Try not to split life into different phrases. For if using festivals/ goals/ deadlines or any other events to set a milestone, it could be give you an illusion that you need to get there.

But no, you need to get nowhere.

It’s continuous. It’s flowing.

Preparing for a leader’s visit still feels very stupid for me.

I recently very enjoy read some *complicated stuffs/ concepts, like constructor theory, complex system, Bayesian brain theory etc. Not sure what they are talking about but I just enjoy reading those pieces😅