A girl goes for a walk...
Lily was allowed a short rest to write her earlier posts, and Goddess Kali generously allowed her to nap for a while afterward. This girl woke up from that nap to her Goddess and a pair of handcuffs. At first she thought she might be in trouble. When Goddess cuffed her tightly and told her to roll over on her stomach, Lily thought she might be in for a spanking - a frightening thought while her butt and thighs still bear the marks of her last beatings. That was not to be this girl's fate, however, though the outcome did involve her ass.
Instead of the sharp sting of a hand slap or the resounding thwack of a wooden spoon, Lily felt the cool, smooth textures of lube being spread between her cheeks by Goddess Kali's warm, soft fingers. This was followed by the welcome feeling of the double dildo sliding inside her and the stimulating buzz of its vibrator coming to life.
It was a wonderful experience!* Goddess has not used Her Lily's ass like that very recently, and it felt like hugging a beloved friend. Being played with there is an interesting sensation, mostly due to the obvious similarities shared with the other activity hosted in the same venue. Lily believes that is part of what makes the sensation so powerful and helps it transcend the borders between pleasure, pain, comfort, shame, and more to create an eclectic blend of moods and physical states that isn't always the same from encounter to encounter.
* - Lily truly loves when Goddess Kali plays with her there under any circumstances, but this time had something extra. Something special. Many of the stories and fantasies this girl has indulged in over her years have featured one or more slaves, victims, etc being forced into things they might not otherwise choose. Being used in this way appeals to her on a deep, primal level. How does this relate? When Goddess woke her, Lily was tired with a bit of a headache, and she had to pee. If she had asked for a break, Goddess would have allowed it because She cares deeply for Her little flower, but this girl chose to be quiet and take it like a good girl, and she is very glad she did. Lily is owned by her Goddess, mind, body, and soul. The needs of her Goddess come before her own. That is her purpose, and she must learn that lesson and make it part of her being. Goddess makes sure Her Lily's needs are met, so Lily will make sure her Goddess' needs are met and Her wants indulged, and she will always strive to better please her perfect Goddess. Moreover, Lily's acceptance of Goddess' advances made her feel used, and she wants that. Craves it. Lily loves to please her Goddess and perform for Her, and is very happy that she chose not to break the mood, and in doing so got to experience a real version of feelings she had only fantasized about in a way that made her feel very comfortable and safe.
The cherry on top? Lily felt easily able to express this to her Goddess and talk about her feelings on the subject. This girl would have struggled to be open like this in times past, and may have left the encounter with a mess of suppressed feelings. Goddess seemed to have some concern and took it as a hint to ask first in the future, at least most of the time. Lily finds that quite acceptable as well. This girl loves her Goddess for Her constant and genuine show of care and concern, but also welcomes Goddess to use her without asking any time She pleases. That triggers something deep and meaningful for Lily, but this girl does prefer Goddess' softer approach most of the time.
Lily also got to wear the tail for a while this evening. It fell out easily once, but this girl was then able to hold it in for some light trotting, which she has had difficulty with in the past. Goddess' squat training is paying off in unanticipated ways! 😁
Tonight Lily's Goddess took her for a walk on a leash to 7-Eleven for drinks. This girl has been on a leash before, quite recently on a trip to the park, but not since being given her name.
It was an exquisite experience! Goddess dragged this girl around the house a bit as we were leaving, but for most of the trip she was allowed to walk comfortably at her Goddess' heel with a bit of slack. The weight of the chain hanging from her collar and the delightful feel of Goddess' ownership and control walking at the end of Her leash made it a true delight, and an experience that Lily is anxious to repeat and grow from.
On the way home Lily was allowed to walk freely at Goddess' heel because our hands were full, but at the end of the block Goddess ordered Lily to her toes - i.e. to walk on tiptoes until we got home. She did not think Lily was up to the challenge, but She has been training Her slavegirl well. Not only did Lily make it home, but stayed on her toes for at least 20 minutes longer while she started setting up the glider food and Goddess trimmed some nails.
Both Goddess Kali and Lily herself were impressed by this. Goddess was very excited and petted and praised Her pretty Lily. This girl loves and basks in her Goddess' praise in a way that is very powerful and very deep. Goddess has been this girl's biggest fan and cheerleader since the day we met. Lily has always loved that, and recently learned it is called a praise kink. The reason Lily has it may never be fully understood, but you don't have to understand a thing to see and leverage its potential. Goddess desires feelings of security and has a kink for giving praise. This girl needs discipline and has craved it in unhealthy ways in the past. Lily needs praise, and Goddess gives it in the best and most healthy of ways. This dynamic gives a framework for both of us to get what we need, and that makes it easier for Lily to wholeheartedly belong to Goddess Kali and willingly and gratefully accept Her ownership.
This girl has had a good day, and she loves her amazing Goddess all the more for having spent it together. 🥰
