nostr:npub16qct6ge6zdr72yxrw2cc0rsqyp9j9qrjs9pkz3gkydc839jrtk5sj8al6e i remember on IRC in the 90s, some channels just had a blanket ban on anyone connecting from an .no domain.

nostr:npub16qct6ge6zdr72yxrw2cc0rsqyp9j9qrjs9pkz3gkydc839jrtk5sj8al6e the relays are kind of interchangeable. and i have some connectivity issues with Nostr. i'll fire up a web client and hardly any relays will connect. not sure why. maybe they block Norwegian IP ranges?

nostr:npub16qct6ge6zdr72yxrw2cc0rsqyp9j9qrjs9pkz3gkydc839jrtk5sj8al6e their loss

nostr:npub16qct6ge6zdr72yxrw2cc0rsqyp9j9qrjs9pkz3gkydc839jrtk5sj8al6e i mean, i could, but where did that idea come from?

nostr:npub1nlua7kctkqjsvusz8cxx28jdmgmn8khclt38vxzvavxcmvm9llksatauac huh, so you like the smell of putrid stuff

i'm more like... i eat cheese despite the smell.

i don't share where i like to put my penis to everyone.

it's a bit puzzling when queer people do that publicly.

nostr:npub1d72k275xlatga8z4k3h5ucl6ycw33zfqmjpz86q9wrtzkyarjpcszd23n3 it totally has a smell!

all cheese is a little bit stinky.

why are so many good things in life stinky

cheese

butter

vagina

nostr:npub1qfvjgl0z8mupgxxa90f0zd5hg5d09t60sucf3tucjpgmh02sznfsl9et4g i was one of them, but they really don't understand social interaction

nostr:npub1qfvjgl0z8mupgxxa90f0zd5hg5d09t60sucf3tucjpgmh02sznfsl9et4g i hate it when smug computer geeks say "just google it"

nostr:npub1qfvjgl0z8mupgxxa90f0zd5hg5d09t60sucf3tucjpgmh02sznfsl9et4g there is such a thing as preferring conversation over computers

i always feel this very uncomfortable "knot" in my stomach when i'm overstimulated or in distress.

nostr:npub1qfvjgl0z8mupgxxa90f0zd5hg5d09t60sucf3tucjpgmh02sznfsl9et4g depends on what you mean by "long game" though. i just found the situation of staying in contact very stressful because of my own emotional reactions, which i can't control

nostr:npub1qfvjgl0z8mupgxxa90f0zd5hg5d09t60sucf3tucjpgmh02sznfsl9et4g depends on what you mean by "long game" though. i just found the situation of staying in contact very stressful.

nostr:npub1qfvjgl0z8mupgxxa90f0zd5hg5d09t60sucf3tucjpgmh02sznfsl9et4g i kind of suspect she already did, because she introduced me to a friend who lost her husband recently

can't say this new person is anywhere near as active online though

also, she can't really play matchmaker to anyone in Oslo. she's not from Norway.

nostr:npub1kpwlxpzkxfmuxjmzc2wp3rf9vjg0sgydmlhsnrgqr3maf59h86qqdxxzz4 it's a way of putting it into perspective and regulating feelings

nostr:npub1kpwlxpzkxfmuxjmzc2wp3rf9vjg0sgydmlhsnrgqr3maf59h86qqdxxzz4 well, i've been deeply depressed before, and this is not as bad. quite sad, but i mean, not as sad as the death of a loved one.

nostr:npub1qfvjgl0z8mupgxxa90f0zd5hg5d09t60sucf3tucjpgmh02sznfsl9et4g reason is this: https://berserker.town/@thor/111117756509172952

i was really happy that this new best friend would respond to my texts daily.

there were too many feelings for her though. not helped by the fact that when she was in Oslo, we got intimate repeatedly.

seeing as she wasn't interested in a relationship, i tried to get rid of the feelings, but it doesn't really work like that. they kept returning, because, well, she was being herself, and i kept falling in love with that.

sucks to have to cut a new best friend off because you love her and it's not mutual.

nostr:npub1kpwlxpzkxfmuxjmzc2wp3rf9vjg0sgydmlhsnrgqr3maf59h86qqdxxzz4 nostr:npub1whnum8nhxdrrny6jnc3etx7n46m6wnt77ee7h2has2zsfjyyqdhshctwsa to a degree where it would be too much for most people to endure, perhaps

but it's too much.

discussing people or ideas is not the point, really.

actions are the point.

nostr:npub1437d992cqszvsnzpuy7jnec2w90dk4tfj57echyahg6ffu9y9t2s9kranm nostr:npub1kpwlxpzkxfmuxjmzc2wp3rf9vjg0sgydmlhsnrgqr3maf59h86qqdxxzz4 my ears need it.

nostr:npub1kpwlxpzkxfmuxjmzc2wp3rf9vjg0sgydmlhsnrgqr3maf59h86qqdxxzz4 if you are capable of stepping in, this is a power you have, and you should recognise it.

nostr:npub1kpwlxpzkxfmuxjmzc2wp3rf9vjg0sgydmlhsnrgqr3maf59h86qqdxxzz4 now, okay, i agreee

but now, how is choosing

and for what reason?

ah, something that happened previously.