Google turned 25 years old today

Another day at my job. The sun is shining, and that is lifting my mood… at least a little bit 💛

but still, it’s hard for me to get up every day and do a job I really don’t like. I feel stuck, for way too long now. There are days I wake up and could cry, there are days I just fight myself through, and there are days that are okay, but overall, it makes me feel bad. It feels like I am not the person I really am, I can’t express myself the way I want to. I am far away from home. Distracted with things I don’t like. This job is not fulfilling me, and it’s hard for me to not let that affect my private life. I am coming home from work and feeling exhausted, I have a hard time to motivate myself for going outside, caring for my garden, cooking, showering, meeting my fam and friends. All these beautiful things feel annoying. At least yoga is fun atm and releases some tension.

I am at a point where I underestimate my skills. Thats making it difficult to just moving on. I blame myself a lot, for not moving on. Everyday. And still, I am trying my best so the stuff I am working with… works… even with my bad attitude. Something I can be proud of… ugh it’s destroying me. Finding a new job is harder than I thought. The job education I accomplished is nothing I like to do all day, it does not fulfill me. I don’t feel like starting another 3 year job education. I feel unskilled for every job application I am interested in, I am at the beginning of my twenties. My dream is it to work on my own… but it’s much work to actually do it. And that’s where my mind is when I think of the next years. I am missing a lot of energy. I feel weak, like never before. Writing this is giving me energy.

Days like these show me that I have to take action. I am the only person that can guide myself. I am responsible for me. All these negative feelings are pushing me out of my comfort zone, urging me to move. But it is still difficult for me to move on… I don’t know… I am facing one of life's challenges... it’s getting better.

Waking up in the morning and actually wanting to wake up, no more days where I want to bury myself between pillows in my bed. The great amount of love and joy that I feel for life wants to be unconditionally shared. All of that will come back to me. And I am getting closer to that every day. I believe in myself. Push those walls, break through. Visions are highly set.

Any advice is welcome 💜 Thank you for your time. And yeah I know I could be grateful for having a… job…, but… I am fighting here for a really really long time and I don’t know how long I can keep up a positive attitude anymore… honestly I can’t. I don’t like the upset me. I am tired of blaming myself for not just moving on and try something new.

I can’t keep that in my mind anymore so I wanted to share it with the world. Maybe someone is fighting the same fight, you’re not alone and you will break yourself out of these chains, just like me… very soon… building strength. 💜

Don’t let this happen to the people you care about — educate them about #Bitcoin

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2013: You didn’t know about bitcoin at $25

2015: You didn’t care about bitcoin at $250

2017: You didn’t understand bitcoin at $2500

2023: You didn’t believe in bitcoin at $25,000

2027: You almost bought bitcoin at $250,000

2031: You bought bitcoin  at $2,500,000

Prolific and delicious wild autumn olive worthy of propagation

Autumn olive is a nitrogen fixing shrub with small edible berries. It's considered a weed for the most part but our sheep love to eat it. Most of the time the berries are small, astringent and sour. Lots of seed not much fruit. I've been tasting all the autumn olive over the years as it appears here on the homestead and never found any worth harvesting. Last season I found this autumn olive shrub loaded with large, sweet, mildly astringent berries. I tried to harvest some and plant the seed without any success. Thankfully this shrub is still prolific and as sweet as ever. I look forward to harvesting all I can as it fully ripens over the next week or so. I will dehydrate some and plant some.

#permaculture #permies #homesteading #grownostr #meshtadel #selfsovereignty #perennial #autumnolive #nitrogenfixer #foraging #wildforaged

First egg on the farm 🥚🦆 #permies

I took down the run and returned all the materials I could. Sold all the chicken stuff and chickens in a bundle deal to a local that has chickens already. Built a raised bed with some of the leftovers.

It wasn’t worth trying to rationalize with the township. They wanted to charge me $500 just to go to a meeting and plead my case which really pissed me off. (Civil servants my ass) and no one in recent history has every been approved to have chickens in the township. Even people with 5 acres.

It’s the most upset and disappointed I’ve been in a long long time. More so because my young daughter won’t get to experience having chickens at her age, and obviously the bit of self sufficiency that would provide to our family.

Spotted Lantern Fly.

Kept hearing about them online, they finally got here. Supposedly they eat all the trees and steal babies in the night.

No it’s been laying in the woods for a few months with the leaves on to dry

HELP! I recently found out that my township doesn’t allow me to have chickens. This is after my county said that I could. I really really don’t want to waste all of the time and effort I put into having chickens. I’m basically all done and ready to put the chickens I hatched outside this weekend and now this.

I’m looking for recommendations for some statist jiu jitsu tactics and ideas. If anyone has gotten some kind of exemption or anything like that in an area that technically doesn’t allow chickens please let me know.

If you grind your own beef to make burgers, instead of adding 15-20% beef fat to your mixture add 15-20% of ground bacon ends. Your butcher should have these available for about a 3rd of the price of regular bacon and it makes your burgers taste amazing!

#cooking #foodstr #burgers #beef #grownostr #laborday

Cuttin’ logs for winter today

Beach Day #footstr

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Do you think that short-form, rapid-cut video taps into the attention grabbing nature of flames or moving water?

#grownostr