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No, im being serious! It inspired me to do a little cooking of my own tonight

Impecable. I want to get another one or two soon

“If you worship money and things — if they are where you tap real meaning in life — then you will never have enough. Never feel you have enough. It’s the truth. Worship your own body and beauty and sexual allure and you will always feel ugly, and when time and age start showing, you will die a million deaths before they finally plant you. On one level, we all know this stuff already — it’s been codified as myths, proverbs, clichés, bromides, epigrams, parables: the skeleton of every great story. The trick is keeping the truth up-front in daily consciousness. Worship power — you will feel weak and afraid, and you will need ever more power over others to keep the fear at bay. Worship your intellect, being seen as smart — you will end up feeling stupid, a fraud, always on the verge of being found out. And so on.”

-David Foster Wallace

Time to read this for a 3rd time.

For so long, I wanted to be anyone other than myself. Now I wouldn’t want to be anyone other than myself

Your internal state manifests in the world around you

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okay... so I fucked up.

the patterns of "dopamine-craving" have grown stronger over the past week, and I've had more difficulty pushing back and/or sitting with those feelings without acting on them. I've been acting on them.

last night involved a lot of (social) alcohol. but the way my psyche relates to drinking, there's kind of no such thing as "social". maybe a taste or a single delicious drink on a special occasion. but no matter how many friends are taking shots, it's not a good fit for me.

tonight involved more alcohol, to start. it then moved to drug cravings, and I made a number of choices that I would not have made, were I sober tonight. some of these decisions are more reckless and damaging than others. I put my health, happiness, and relationship at risk when I do this.

these types of slips are often catalyzed by drinking, but I also notice that by the time I am in the mood to "drink to get fucked up", something is aready wrong inside me.

I want to not drink, so that I can steer clear of making second-order bad decisions. always chasing that dopamine rush, in its many forms.

but I also think that to truly heal and recover from these vices or addictions or weaknesses or whatever I call them, it needs to start with the underlying "source material".

the "why" along with the "what". im not sure though, and to be honest this path is new for me. usually I impose external limitations when I need to get myself in check. but that doesn't solve or heal those parts of me that actively want to use again tomorrow.

to anyone more experienced with recovery, from any sort of addiction or self-destructive patterns... im aal ears.

holding on, no matter how hard 🤍

#recovery

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If you ever run across any king of the hill stuff buy it and I’ll send sats

World change happens on a peer-to-peer / individual level.

Reach out to those the world has looked down on. Give a voice to those who don’t have one. Make those visible who are currently invisible. If we were more aware we’d see the value, knowledge, wisdom hidden in plain sight. You never know who someone was, is, or who they will become.

If you take any small part in helping someone you have in fact changed the world

The US was formed based on an act of treason and the future will be forged based on the same

Feel free to reach out to me anytime. I think the conversation has been productive. I’m about to graduate with a business degree (lol) yet it has taught me almost nothing. I’ve gained true knowledge from places most would overlook bc I’ve been one of ‘them’. Who knows, I could be talking to the one next in line to change the world (you). You never know who you are talking to, who they are, and who they will they be ?

Nice to meet you

I don’t say much but when I say little I hope I say much

Nature provides the answers necessary to ‘live’

I don’t have uniform metrics. This can prove beneficial and detrimental simultaneously (learned from past experience). Although useful, concreate measures can detract from true essence. It’s based on energy (as strange as it sounds). Before, I met nostr:npub16secklpnqey3el04fy2drfftsz5k26zlwdsnz84wtul2luwj8fdsugjdxk once and invited him. I’ve known nostr:npub1mdgx4zvhlhwu5lyz7qpk3auehgzaf6frlcshur0zdee0hta3sa3slpj2aj for some time and had him over recently. Others I know, but I won’t mention here. As humans, I know we have idiosyncrasies (after all, who am I to judge based on these temporal metrics) . On a base level, If you turn out to be a decent human and take action to further the advancement of our species in a positive way , selflessly, I would like to know you more. I don’t claim to be all knowing or smarter than the average but enjoy interacting with those that strive to be / do greater. I think these measures are subjective based on the individual but I’ve been blessed to know many based on them

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